Sunday, April 22, 2007

30 Months

Dear was commenting just now that he's afraid that I might get burned out from pushing myself so hard now. I wish I have a few of the super powers in Heroes so I don't have to study so hard now. I wish I have the super memory like waitress Charlie, and Hiro's ability to stop time, so I can complete more stuff in a shorter time. Unfortunately, I'm not the chosen few whose DNA that scientists want to experiment with, thus my memory sucks big time and I can't stop time. Thank God its a "open-notes" exam, so I refer to my notes during the exam.

Time flies and Jan has been there for a week.
Time flies and I haven't been able to meet up with some friends, especially my EM colleagues for a long long time. The last time I met them was last year.
Time flies and I only have 2 weeks to really study as I have to go back to work.

Time flies. 30 months together, me and Dear. Long? Not very. Short? Not either. But during these 30 months, we've been through a lot, and I guess, a lot more than other couples dating out there for 30 months. We've been through highs and lows, happiness and sadness, hopes and disappointments, worries and fustrations, and of course most importantly, standing together in the face of death.
Though a third of the time, I was completely lost, weak, having crazy fevers and in pain and can't remember a shit what happened, except knowing I was travelling to and from the hopital, being pricked by needles and sleeping my life away. Dear was there throughout the entire time, giving me loads of love, care and concern, giving in to all my nonsense, whines, over-the-top requests, and all this while, I only knew how to flare up and scream at everyone around me; short-tempered due to the pains and fevers overcoming me.

But I'm glad, glad that God made us went through all this shit.
Glad that God never left our sides, giving us strength and support.
Glad that God made me realize how much this man is for me, how much I love him and how much I can't do without him.
Glad that God brought us closer and stronger together.
Glad that God opened my eyes, ears and mind to see things very differently now.
Glad that God gave me a new life, a new me, a fresh me so I can start living all over again.
Glad that God made me realize the important beloved friends and family who are dear to me and whom I love in my life.
Thank You Lord ! Amen!

1 comment:

Molly said...

Hi Pacey,

You are one brave and strong lady. Your cancer journey has inspired me greatly. =)

My name is Molly. I was dignosed with ovarian cancer at the age of 30 and currently still undergoing treatments for my relapse.

I would like to invite you to visit my site at WeAreWonderWomen.Com - an online support resource site for young female cancer survivors.

Thank you so much for sharing your cancer experience and I guess you had touched many singaporeans.

Wish you well for your health and studies. =)

Cheers and Regards,