Fever's back...

I've never enjoyed n tire myself out so much since i've been diagnosed. to the extent i think tt's part of the reason my fever's back...

22nd, Wednesday, was a long long day for me. after radiotherapy, i went for lunch wif my mum n dear. thn after, we spent one whole hour waiting to see the chinese sinseh. after we saw him, it was already 3+. we had dessert n my mum went home. since we r miting my colleagues at safra@mt faber, dear n i decided to hang ard at haborfront. we took a bus down n settled down at food junction. i ordered a mushroom omelette from han's n finished the whole thing. only leaving the fries n side salad for me dear. i was too full already n the side salad's coleslaw had too much lemon, making my throat uncomfy.
we left ard 5, only to see a very long q at the taxi stand. luckily we were 5 mins early cos the q doubled the moment we stepped in. we ktv-ed till 8 then proceeded for dinner.
i din wan to take chinese food but there wasn't much food i fancied, even if i wanted, like bee hoon kuah, i cant take it cos of my throat. so the next best thing was chap chye bee hoon or kuay tiao hongkong. so i ordered kuay tiao hongkong. not nice one... so i just ate the veges. after dinner, jerry drove us back.

23rd, Thursday, eve of my bday. after radiotherapy, dear n i went down for lunch at marina sq's food court. qui lian ban mian really dropped in standard. in the end i only ate the veges. thn i ordered another tau suan to fill up my empty stomach. but whn i finished my you tiao, the tau suan din taste as good already. wht's tau suan without the you tiao...
after lunch, it was show time! Initial D time! so proud of myself to catch it on the opening day. hehe... really enjoyed the show. after the show we took a bus home, n i slept like a log on the bus. reached home, sleep somemore.
at nite, i cant get to sleep. keep tossing n turning. toss n turn n felt my fever came back. can't recall if 22nd or 21st nite i had fever too. but i can remember this cos it was eve of my bday, n i wanted to get well cos it's my bday the next day.

24th, Friday, offically turned 24. dear made me look for the gifts, but too restless n irritated by the sleepness nite to do it. went for radiotherapy n had lunch. then went home to zzz. the last 2 days really drained me out. really had no energy to go anywhr or do anything. i just zzz.
same sleepness nite. toss n turned till 1am, finally zzz. woke up at 5am. thn cant get to zzz. could feel my temp rising at ard 6... took my temp, took 2 panadol, slept ard 7. got woken by my mum ard 12 to start preparing for lunch.

25th, Saturday, woke up, bathed, started to help prepare lunch. dear came over n wanted to "help" whn he saw me in the kitchen. but the expression on his face gives him away, cos he's in for the fun! the gals came over n we had lunch. while snacking, we watch finished 5 epis of mi qing jia zu, a tvb series. at 6+, we cut the cake thy had bought for me.
after eating the cake, we made our way down to mit the rest of our classmates at cineleisure. we had a bite n something to drink. chatted for a while thn decided to leave the place ard 10+ n make our way to safra@ mt faber for bowling.
we waited for quite a while before we got our lanes. n we only played one game. dear n i went home, while the rest of them went to eat. i needed to get home to take my temp cos i dun feel right n soccer has already started.
just as i guessed as much, my temp was 38. took 2 panadols n watch the 2nd half of the match wif my dear. after the match he went home, while i went straight to bed, straight to zzz, no toss n turn.

26th, Sunday, probably the worst day of my bday wkend. everything was ok at first. till abt 6, i felt something's not rite. after my mum cooked dinner ard 6+, i immediately ate n measured my temp. it was abt 37.5... slightly aft 7, i took 2 panadols. but my temp kept increasing. by 9, i started to feel cold n thn started to shiver. my sis had to help take my temp for me. it was 38.7... i was shivering damn badly n my teeth were chattering. mum had to feed me warm water thru a straw. temp taken again, this time, 39.4, my parents decided to take me to Mt. E's A&E.
although mine's not much of a A&E case, but 39.4 was too high to disregard for a cancer patient like me. n in my case like tis, i wun wana c a gp cos thr's too much explanation to do n a gp would just give some fever medication n call for d next patient.
at A&E, the doc gave me nurofen to take immediately n took my blood (ouch, again...) for testing. results were out abt 1 hour later, so in between, i called my dear to see if he could come down... according to the doc, all my blood level counts r ok. except for the 4 diff white blood counts. he said one had too much percentage n said if my fever continues to be like tt, he would wana do further checks on me to c if i have any viral or bacteria infection or even dengue fever. he said dengue had a window period, so too early, blood test aso cant tell. by then, my fever had dropped to 37.9...
he gave me more nurofen n a 3 day course of antibiotics. the antibiotics is a 7 bucks per pill white simple looking thing. i have to take 2 once i've eaten something whn reach home.

today, same thing as usual... radiotherapy, lunch, home, nap. woke up to find myself feverish again... took oats, took nurofen at ard 6+. took temp every half an hour. reached 38.4 at 8+. decided to have something to eat thn have my antibiotics. after tt, my temp keep dropping. no more fever! but kept craving for food. in the end, i made half a can of campbell to eat. now, time to zzz...

Initial D

Initial D was damn good. I really dun mind watching it again. Seriously, the dubbing was quite a pain to listen to, esp the lady who dubbed for Anne Suzuki, jus seemed too fake. n since jay's more fluent in chinese, he pratically just adr-ed his own part. d rest were jus ok... mayb should try to watch it in cantonese to see which dubbing is worse.

acting wise, everyone was good.
jay was jus being himself, not much acting to mention.
wang qiu sheng was damn good, really damn good, he should get a nomination for this.
Kenny bee was great too n the role is so totally un-him.
shawn yue n edison both were just as sauve n cool too.
anne suzuki was just acting cute, which is kinda easy given her cute face.
another fella worth nomination is chapman to, with his duh expression put onto certain lines, it really gave off comical effect n he knows when to use it, when not to.
geng hong ge's (as how jay n xiao zhu call him) chracter was meant to irritate n arrogant. n he did irritate me with the arrogance. glad tt he has a chanve to act in a big movie at last.
chen xiao chun's fans will be damn disappointed. although his billing is kinda "nice", saying zhu yan, he's actual timing doesn't really qualify for it. seems more like guest star, not much room for him to show his acting skills.

soundtrack is damn wonderful! i'm gonna get it once it hit the stores.

in all, i think the only "cocked up" thing in the movie is the billing. like wht i mentioned, chen xiao chun wasnt really zhu yan, but rather ke chuan, so was gen hong ge. even edison n shawn had ling xian zhu yan, but compared to jay or even chapman to, thy had lesser timing on screen. movie billing is one thing, on the movie poster it says another thing. funny billings...

Happy Bithday to Me!

one year older, one year wiser? mayb, dunno, can't feel it. i think tis would b my most "suffering" bday so far in my 24 years of life. usually on bdays, there should be great food, great friends, great drinks, great health, great atmosphere, great everything to make it almost too perfect. i have everything, its its either positive or negative, yes or no...

food: yes i have, can taste or not is another thing...
friends: yes i have. i think besides my 21st, this year would b one i had the most happy bday sms-es. not to mention, i also have my boyFRIEND, my dearest with me...
drinks: would chinese medicine count as one? tis is the sweetest chinse medication i've ever drunk. no coffee, no tea, no caffine, which is killing! gotta make do with plain water, ju hua cha, soybean milk, erm, honey water, erm, think tt's abt all...
health: yes i have, but, haiz... the chinese sinseh said my blood pressure kinda low, which is norm, but climbin stairs is a chore. tok abt this morning... there's a butterfly on the 7th floor, i only saw it went i went down almost half the flight of stairs outside my house. the stupid greenish/ yellowish fluttering thing scared the shit outta me. so, in the end, i had to climb 4 flight of stairs to reach 10th floor to take the lift. by the time i reached 10th floor, i was breathless... n my mouth, dry n not dry, feels dry, but loads of phelgm, which might rather be thick saliva.
atmosphere: in the comfort of my home, how good can it be...
pls valuate...

my dearest bought me...
a tub of ben & jerry's chubby hubby: hehe... chubby HUBBY! meaning himself... muahahaha...
3 roses: everyone knows 3 roses has a meaning. it means i love u! hehe...
a perlini's silver ring: he not working, taking care of me, so no money. but afterall its a ring! a ring is still a ring! n its from him! hehe... although a bit loose, so tmr will check back with the store if we can change for a smaller one. hehe...
lao gong, thank you!

Werner's Oven

was there ystday with my parents... I like this place. Its very cosy. Although the deco does not look impressive or not worth the pricing u're gonna pay for the meals, its a very nice hang out/ chill out place.

the tables n chairs they use look very cheapo, rite down to the plastic red-white chequered tablecloth, the metal salt/ pepper shakers and metal sugar "jug". Their specials menu is tucked at a left corner n i saw tt only whn i finished my meal. the cashier counter looks like those neighbourhood bakery type, small n not impressive at all. even the cakes n breads r displayed not very attractively.

BUT, the food's great! tt's only provided if u're a meat n potato lover. let's first talk abt soups n side dishes...
the soup portion is small for the pricing indicated. but whn u taste it, u know its the quality tt yr paying for, not the quanity in this area. my mum took the pumpkin soup, she loved it cos it was thick, but not extremely thick n the pumpkin taste was in every spoonful. she said it was definately worth the price.
side dishes, consist of potato salad, green salad, fries, sauerkraut (pickled cabbage) n calamari. might as well not order anything except the calamari, u'll know y later.

there's 2 kinda main meals. 1st, the "normal western" foods.
the "normal" grilled chicken, lamb, etc, chops can either b served with a fries or potato salad. they also have burgers, spaghetti n lagsagne. on the list is also oxtail stew or soup. they also have pita bread for light eaters. the avg pricing for these is abt 10 which is damn worth it for the HUGE portion n taste. my mum order a spaghetti n every mouthful i tried was meat n tomato sauce. the sauce was not too watery n it was proportionate with the pasta. how often do u find yrself eating lousy pasta cos by the time u finished the sauce, u still have 1/3 pasta left, definately not this place.

the other, the german foods. they are slightly pricier, on avg, 17. but the portion was HUGE! over here, u definately have to "under" order to finish all the food. the tables ard me all can't finish, at least 1/2 of the sides accompaning the main dish was left on the plate. on this section of the menu, all dishes are served wif potatoes, salad, mashed, sauteed, wedged, french fried or boiled. here, u'll find pork knuckle, meatloafs, lots of kinda sausage, grilled fish, steak, all german style.
i ordered the meatloaf wif sauteed potatoes & fried egg. meatloaf tasted like a huge slob of ham, good ham. sauteed potatoes were nicely n just rite seasoned not too hard, not too soft, just all nice n rite. the fried egg is a sunny side up.
my dad ordered a bread-crumbed boneless pork loin wif green salad & wedged potatoes. the pork wasnt too tough n was just all nice n rite. the lettuce in the green salad was juicy n sweet. the wedgies were yummy, deep fried just nice to perfection.

there we were, eating n trying each others food. normally u would eat main dish a bit, side a bit. then we were already 3/4 way there. there was 1/4 spaghetti left, 1/4 pork loin, 1/2 meatloaf, 1/3 portion of the wedgies n 1/3 of the sauteed potatoes.
so, ta bao was on the cards, 1/4 pork loin n 1/2 meatloaf... we finished the spaghetti, salad n potatoes. now u know y thr's no need to order the sides, cos the main courses' portion is HUGE! they have a 3-person set worth 75 bucks. if judging by the scenario above, unless the 3 persons r big eaters or they had forgo a meal b4 this, pls do not attempt. it seriously looked like it was meant for 5.

desserts r very extremely reasonably prices too. even the drinks... everything here is priced reasonably. portion wise, quality wise, taste wise. like wht chinese say, wu chao shuo zhi... best of all, no service charge, but of cos u have to pay for gst as per usual.

Whn u're there, be sure to check out the cakes, pastry n breads. like wht i said, they dun look attractive, but they sure taste good. although we din tried, the sastified looks on other patrons tell it all whn thy had an after-meal cake or pastry. do check them out at http://www.wernersoven.com.sg.

ps: unless yr damn familiar with the siglap area, its kinda hard to find, cos their signage is too damn small.
hint: if travelling by car, ard the point whr east coast rd meets upper east coast road, look out for a starbucks, galare cafe n 7-11 placed together. look the other side of the road for a shell station n a public carpark. most advisable to park at tt carpark. after parking, dun cross the road, but walk along it, away from the shell station. keep yr eyes to the left, once u finished the carpark stretch, u'll c werner's over hidden at the bottom of a bldg of walk up apartments.
if travelling by bus, alight whr u would normally at the siglap stretch n walk over.

pork knuckle's next on my list, wht yours?

Blogging freedom...

When i'm loggin in so often to blog, its either i'm restless, bored, got too much rantings, or soccer is boring. indeed, i think i have too much rantings n complains n i nag n nag on my blog...

but who cares! a blog is MY online diary. its filled with MY tots, MY thinkings, MY expressions n MY everything i wana write/ type in it. i like to rant n whine n tt's my prob.
if u r reading this blog cos u're my frd n reading this for updates, thanks for checking in often. if u r a "passerby" reader of my blog, read n take it. if u dun like it, dun criticise n say my blog is lousy.
i write/type to let readers, friends or foe, understand my emotions, my thinking, my actions, my everything better. my style of writing is rojak, but its me...

My blog is BORING. no cutesy pics, no nude pics, no drawings, no animations, nothing at all except words n words n all words. yes, yr highness me did tot of moving my dear "rantings" to places like b***s**t whr i can put pics up. but i tot, its a diary, not a scrapbook, so no need for the non-wordings stuff. but then again, its great, cos i can always put a pic n explain things i wana explain better, but hack cos i'm not good in drawing. but then again, with photoshop, u can have squares n circles nicely drawn out for u, but hack, i'm hopeless at html so these r kinda hard for me to control...

Newpaper today toked abt a blogger who put up nude pics. hello, its her own "privacy" to do wht she wans, although there's isnt much privacy after all. but its her freedom, who r u to question. an award winning blogger commented that the "nudist" uses too much chim english on her blog, but its her style or writing. look at me, i dun write in proper english n mixed in mandarin n dialects, but its me, my rojak style n i like it.

n there of cos, i'm not an award winning blogger who has her own column on a local paper, does tt mean i cant comment as much? how can u b considered an award winning blogger whn yr page take FOREVER to load even on broadband? with all the non wordings on yr blog, i wonder if u're an exhibitionist yrself, putting up pics of yrself all over yr blog. maybe tt's how u won it? putting cutesy pics up? sometimes i wonder how can one person have "experiences" to write abt almost EVERYDAY. its amazing wht kinda life tt fella leads. n her style of writing, bimbotic to wht i feel...

thn d Newpaper had a column whr pple can sms in their comments on whether bloggers in singapore r overrated n overhyped. in the case of our own award winning blogger, i agree. cos i can definately find blogs out thr which r better then hers.
someone commented tt everyone in sg, exp gals uses the blog for ranting n bad mouthing pple. hey hello, who doesnt do tt? some choose to rant n whine abt stuff to my parents, close frds n sometimes taxi drivers. even some guy bloggers rant n whine on their blogs too, cos blogs contains our tots! duh... if not wht else u wan us to write/type? something like "morning i woke up, brush teeth, dress up, thn went to work. at 12pm i had lunch, blah blah". puh-lease, i did tt only when i was in primary school! even whn i have a kid, i would encourage him/her to write stuff more "useful", not just only "wht i had for lunch", "wht time i woke up" kinda things...

honestly, i support the "nudist". she's only doing wht she wana do. leave her alone n stop buggin her. its her blog, her tots. she has the freedom to write/type wht she feels. u go gal!

Ranting done for today... will write/type abt werner's oven in a while's time after i cool down...

Hair loss

Always tot only chemo causes hair loss, radiotherapy too... every morning, i find a few strands on my pillow. when i shampoo my hair, about 20 strands r found. when i apply conditioner, another 30 found. when i comb my hair another few found.

my hair already very thin liao... now got hair drop some more... haiz... no hair liao... sad...

Boredom...

Here i am, bored of the Germany vs Tunisia match from the Confed. Germany is gone case, only scoring 1 goal in 73 mins thru a penalty n they r playing against Tunisia! I dun even know whr this tunishit is located on the world map, only i know they are somewhr out thr in the ulus of africa.

Watching alone is boring. watching at kopitiams, breathing in 2nd hand smoke in my condition now, having to tahan all the ah peks there looking at u (not tt i'm stunning apperance wise, ah peks just look, as long as u r a gal), tt's even more sian...

I'm dying of boredom soon. Match is boring, nothing else to watch, nothing else to do, not sleepy, dying soon... of boredom...

Things i hate (On the road version)

Another of my rantings abt pple without much common sense...

1. Ghost car in front
Some drivers like to leave an entire 2 cars spaces in front of them while stopping at junctions. not that there's a yellow box, i have no idea y thy do that. n the junction is at a level ground... ponder...

2. The road is mine
How often do u c drivers on the expressway travelling at 60 or 70 at the extreme right lane when the speed limit is at 80 or 90 respectively...

3. The road is mine V.2
How often do u c drivers talking on their handphones travelling at 30 on the left lane when u can travel at 50... they rather drive stupidly n dangerously then pull along to the side of the road. worse still if thy are on the expressway, travelling at 50 on the extreme rite lane...

4. Cant wait
How often do u c drivers trying to turn out onto roads recklessly? just because the car is 50 meters away, tt does not mean u can try to turn in. who knows tt car is speeding. even if not speeding, who knows the car behind this is tailgating. n becos of u turning in, he/she has to slow down, n the one behind has no time to react n bang! thanks to u who cant wait...

5. The road is mine V.3
Based on the above, how many times have u slowed down to allow the "cant wait" fella onto the road, only to travel 30 behind him all the way whn the road speed limit is 50... imagine if its a one way lane...

6. Orchard road
i kena this b4... i was at the junction outside taka, meritus, paragon n crown prince wif my dear. we started at taka, on the way to heeren. so, we crossed towards meritus while the cars travelling down the main orchard road had the right of way. since drivers know there are bound to be traffic jams during wkends, this driver, (lets name him stupid fucking kan cheong spider, in short, sfkcs) decided to not wait behind the "taka-paragon" line n proceeded in front towards the "meritus-crown prince" line. thn a big thing happened! the traffic lights changed! those travelling down the main orchard road had to stop to allow those waiting at the "taka-meritus" line to travel towards paragon n crown prince. n thus, those waiting at meritus also can cross the road towards crown prince. since there r cars travelling down, this sfkcs had no choice but to move forward into the pedestrian crossing. but no, i n dear did not give way... we stood there for a while to tell him we had the right of way to cross the road n its not our fault tt u r stuck in the middle of a junction bcos of yr stupidity. while we cross, he slowly inched his way forward, only to keep getting horned. this can also be called cant wait V.2...

7. Orchard road V.2
Well, another true acct...was at the small zebra crossing between dunno-what's-tt-bldg-wif-a-huge-rolex-showcase n paragon. as i n dear stepped onto the crossing, this stupid lexus turned in. no, he did not stop, instead this another sfkcs zipped past the crossing, wif a few of us stucked on the crossing. hope my dear's kick was enough to suffer a dent on his car... this can also be called cant wait V.3...

8. Lane switching
Not only happens to taxi drivers. there were 3 lanes... i was on a cab in the middle lane. there was a stupid old man in a jag on the rite. as we left the junction, this idiot, cut dangerously into our lane, n thn almost stop, thn cut to the lane on the left. i tot maybe he need to turn left, but no..... he travelled straight.

9. Passengers on taxis
y them, not the taxi drivers? becos if the passengers know whr thy wana go n give instructions in advance, the drivers dun have to turn or switch lanes or stop dangerously.

I'm lazy to think of solutions to these cos i realised there are no solutions to stupidity...

Sweet!

As of today, me n dear dear 8 months already. so happy... can't b blessed enough! this is wht i call happiness...

tmr morning will b the last dosage for the antibiotics! yay! no more pills! scared liao...

I'll not b taking Salagen too on advice of my oncologist. cos i have very terrible side effects upon taking... stomach will start to have lots of wind, to the point i keep burping till i vomitted. heartbeat increased. break out in cold sweat. groggy and giddiness. thn due to all these, damn tired n sleepy. but, can't get to sleep without difficulty cos i feel damn lousy. so no more salagen n saliva for me.

so now, my food's tasteless. within a week, i've dropped 1kg. i have no taste at all for savuory n saltly foods, but i still can taste sweet stuff still... no idea y. would tt mean i can eat ice cream for lunch n dinner? hehe... ice cream is sweet so i can taste it. at the same time, it has loads of calories to give me d additional energy i need cos i dun have appetite...

haha, so my bday wish is loads of ben's n jerry's! mmmuuuuahahaahaha...

After 4 treatments...

Here's some updates n news about me n my health after 4 treatments...

yes, fever is common, very common, nothing to be afraid of...
no, a fever of 38 degrees is deemed to high n abnormal...
yes, i'm officially declared allergic to Agumentin...
no, tt's not considered good news cos i have to take another 2 antibiotics given to me today...
yes, throat not hoarse yet, still can sing a bit...
no, mouth dryness has kicked in... meaning i have to put on a dental routine everyday for more then 5 mins, just like those days i had braces...
yes, my oncologist gave me Salagen to "activate" my salivary glands...
no, whn i read thru the prescription information, it says too much will affect fertility...
yes, i'm still gonna take it cos of re-assurance from my dear...
no, skin is blackening... a tad earlier thn i expected. although i know i tan very easily, this is too much for me to take...
yes, i'm applying aloe religiously on the blackened areas to cool the skin down n taking care not to peel any layer of blackened skin cos human skin dun regenerate so fast, thus exposing the raw fresh skin...
no, cos i still can feel the burn...

expected 35 treatments... 31 more to go... die u tumor, die!!!

Things i hate (Foodcourt version)

Well, Mr Goh Chok Tong once said when he was the prime minister that he hopes to see that Singapore would be a gracious society. Today, we'll see some examples y we are not able to achieve tt so easily and how we can solve them... Although i dun expect much pple to read this cos mine's not an award winning blog wif cutesy pics, i hope whoever "stumbles" upon tis will take note... pls note tt the below scenarios can happen in any of the languages n dialects here...

1. Occupied?
Scenario: Often enough, at a 4 seater square/ rectangular table, whn u r alone, pple will attempt to sit down b4 even bother asking if the seat is occupied. whn u tell them "seat is taken". they will give u a suprised, amazed, i-cant-believe-it look and say, "huh? taken already?" then u have to repeat yrselves for the nth time tt it is indeed occupied. But these pple do not budge! they will probe further asking how many pple seating... pls lor, who wana share a table with some rude pple...
To solve: opening your mouth to ask WILL NOT kill u... i repeat, WILL NOT kill u! the person at the table WILL NOT bite u too, i repeat WILL NOT! Just polietly ask, even if there is only 2 pple occupying the seats, chance are thy will put their bags on their laps to make space for u.

2. Still cant decide
Scenario: there's a queue n u join the queue. auntie/ uncle at the stall asks the person in front of u wht is the order. the person replies, " hold on, still looking". So, auntie/ uncle at the stall turns to u, n asks for yr order. b4 u can even say, "can i have..." or "one bowl/ one plate of..." the person in front of u starts to interrupt into the conversation n says his/ her order. Kiasu-ism at one of its best works.
To solve: if you have not decided yet, or still looking, kindly refrain from joining the queue. let those who have already decided order their food so as not to hold up the queue.

3. Left or right
Scenario: there's one person in the queue. one joins on the left. another one comes along n join on the right. b4 the left one says anything, the right one, thinking he/ she has the right of way, hollers the attention of the uncle/ auntie at the stall n order. Hello, wait for a while wun die la! at least find out if the pple already standing there has already ordered, or find out the direction of the queue...
To solve: its up to one's honours to do this. politely ask if they have ordered, tt would deemed the direction of the queue at least.

4. Alone
Scenario: No, not the song Alone, wht i meant was if u're eating alone. often then not, we see pple alone who purchased their food and thn carrying the tray of hot food, looking ard for a seat to have their meal. not that yr wrong, but a place like a foodcourt will definately have kids running around. you might will looking at empty seats, overlook the little tot walking around.
To solve: look around for wht u r eating 1st. then grab a seat very nearby. ask someone to help u look after while u buy from the stall in front of u or leave yr shopping bags or belongings there. and of cos take along yr hp n wallet... walk over to the stall n get yr food while of cos, keeping an eye on yr stuff.

5. Tray vs no tray
Scenario: u, carrying a tray of hot food. someone, empty handed, coming in yr opposite direction going towards a stall n get food. i often find myself, with the tray giving way to hungry pple.
To solve: either foodcourts make their aisle wider which will help condone the mistakes or... those who are empty handed, give way la! more often thn not, i would have the urge to splash my hot soup on these pple who dun give way. y issit so difficult to give way?

6. My seat has nails
Scenario: sometimes foodcourts have 6 or even 8 seaters rectagular tables, they even have tables placed very closely to one another. some pple tend to b lazy n conviently sit along the aisle, even me. But, there's a big difference between me n these pple. Some pple with pig brains, think the aisle between the rows of seats is very wide. if not y do they sit at the edge of the chair, with only 1/4 of the butt on the chair? oh, mayb the chair has nails. well, if they put their bag at the back of seat its understandable why they are taking up so much space, but i'm toking abt those wif nothing on their seats except their 1/4 butt. so whn 1 person sit like tt, u still can manage to squeeze through wif yr frds to the 4 seats right in the middle. but whn 2 pple like tt sit chair to chair (note, impossible to be back to back cos their backs dun touch the chair at all), u have to "excuse me" your way through. n whn u do tt, chances are one side would be deaf, the other will move another 1/4 of his/ her butt into the chair n give u a i'm-eating-cant-u-c, u-irritating-pest, dun-disturb-me look on their face.
To solve: foodcourt chairs r safe, they dun have nails nor do they bite. u can safely place yr whole butt on the chair n shift it in. pple need to walk behind you into the seat or table beside u...

Tt's all i have to provide at the moment...

Fever...

Y am i here at this hour... let's track backwards a few days to last thurs...

It was my first radiotherapy session. Lying on my back on a cold hard surface, neck propped up by a support, head tilted back, chin up, blood rush... did this twice, one for x-ray, one for the actual "shooting". on average, about 40 mins for each. everytime i got up, i was blur, slow, dizzy, groggy n feeling damn irritated... mayb i went it with a very full stomach... the "effects" lasted the whole day, decided to sleep early at 10, only to wake up an hour later, feeling feverish. took a tablet n called my dear for a little re-assurance that nothing serious is happening, since my oncologist had already mentioned that fever, cold n flus will b common to me...

Woke up feeling all-righto! dun feel feverish or anything at all. 2nd session... told myself not to eat too full but at the same time have to eat a little, if not stomach will be growling for help. lied down in the same position... but whn i got up 25 mins later, the "effects" were not as bad as the day b4. mayb i got used to it, or mayb it was shorter time spent or mayb it was a light breakfast, instead of a heavy one.
When i reached my doorstep, i was feeling damn hungry, almost to the extent of gastric n puking acid outta me... thn as i settle down to eat, my knee killed me, it was aching a bit on the way back from the hospital... i had injured my legs b4, thus whn weather chilly or my legs dun like the humidity, they hurt. got some deep heat to spray on my knee n while waiting for the "heat", i lost my appetite. whn i started to force myself to eat, i feel funny... the fever's back! force myself to eat a little n thn a tablet, sleep. woke up n took another tablet, fever's still here... the gals came over a while later. we had dinner n played a few rounds of cluedo. they went back at around 12. dear stay overnite to keep me company. still feverish...

Saturday... woke up slightly after 1. did not help tt the fact my sleep was interrupted every 4 hours for my one tablet... seem ok already. temp went down. yay! no more medicine! but... fever came back again at nite. sigh... so i was on my one tablet again. dear came over to take care of me again. every 4 hours, 1 tablet....

Woke up feeling ok already. took 1 more tablet to "round things up". the whole afternoon no prob, temp hovering at the avg of 37.3... then, at 6, i was starting to feel a little funny, yet again. Damn fed up with the fever already, whn i think its almost gone, its back. never once i had fever for so long! my temp indeed went up to 37.7. took dinner, took 2 tablets n zzz. 5 hours later at 12, i woke up, took my temp, 36.9. hmm, fever's gone, great! so i took another 2 tablets at 1 to "round things up". but i can't get back to zzz...
one more hour to 6 hours, the timing for the "tableting", my temp is at the perfecto 36.9! Yay, no more fever!!!

Piggy lips

Golden Melody Awards, the Asian equivalent of the Grammys was held on saturday... Jay was nominated for a few awards, but walked away empty handed... A*Mei was nominated for best female vocalist but lost to sun yanzi... Only FIR won best newcomer... my only consolation...

confirmed, lymph nodes have grown... but ystday, my oncologist, Dr Khor ensured me there's nothing to worry cos whn he did my radiotherapy planning, he had tt planned into it also... phew, dun have to go for another ct scan... He gave me some antibiotics, but i think i'm allergic to it, cos i started to have have piggy-swollen lips since last nite, only after 2 doses... still have a little swell now, feels rubbery...

Radiotherapy starts on thursday... how i feel? dunno... if i say i'm excited, will i be considered mad? i'm really charged up n excited abt it... i wana do it! fight n win tis battle! thursday, round 1, here i come!!!