To bro...

Wht shld blogs n journals be? Writing abt sad negative stuff or writing abt happy cheerful stuff or shld it be both?

pple close to me shld know I hate being a 3rd party or being invovled in others r/ships. y am i now? y issit tt my closest frd, a buddy, a bro's gf dun like him toking or miting me? however he explains to me, i jus cant understand it. but now i believe n c tt the power of true love is so great. it even can make someone forget his dreams and not do anything. Even if it means distancing himself from close frds of the opposite sex. All becos of a gf who cant accept the fact tt even ex-es can be close frds. am i asking too much? all i hope is just the same treatment... But it seems that i'm losing a frd, a close buddy soon...

i've wanted to let go, months ago... telling him tt remaining as frds wld be best, not as bro n sis, cos no gal wld be able to take it... he din wan, smsed me saying "i'm very impt to him", "someone he'll tok to care n help till the end of time", "someone whom he really care for n treat as a sis"... reading these sms now really sound BS... jus cos of a gal, whom he hasn't met, a gal whom he call "dear", a gal whom he love... he stops calling his sis n cant go out wif her, cos his gf dun like it... well, y cant the gal be slightly mature n magnaminous? n i cant believe the fact tt my bro wld like this kinda gal...

mayb i shld be more understanding eh? give her time to accept n understand eh? haven i been helping? giving advices n stuff? haven i stop calling him for soooo long, only calling him to dicuss impt stuff... n to think i lump everything together... how productive is tt...

mayb its time to let go... being as norm frds is betta... as a sis, u're like obliged to help n whn u do, u get blamed in the end... saying tt u're giving extra pressure... who's giving pressure to who? did he ever stand in my position n think?! since its so stressful to handle a gf n a sis, u have to let go of one... and since i'm already willing to go, pls let go... if u ever got to read this... pls let go... only whn there's biz to discuss thn contact... But, he even hardly contacts me for biz discussion... am i a biz partner or wht?

where r the times tt we discussed biz, brainstorming like crazy over the phone? maybe its me n my condition, which u dunno... mayb u prefer love to bread... prefer toking to yr gf thn toking abt biz, brainstorming n stuff... mayb i'm really not impt to u anymore... if i'm not, pls let go...

where r the times u called me to try to spare time to go over to yr place on weekends cos u miss yr sis, n wan the family to have a meal together... now i'm not even allowed to step into yr place... mayb the gal loves u too much, so she dun wan me to step into yr home... but like wht u said, yr home is my home, cos yr mum treats me like a daughter... n now?

yah.. have to give some time.. how long? no one knows... but does tt means the day she cant understand n accept, we'll be forever distanced apart? if tt's the case, thn we're not siblings anymore, its seems more like just norm biz partners n frds... anyway, we're aso not blood siblings... I'm just disappointed in the way u handle stuff...

just hope u'll not forget yr dreams, yr immortality plan n yr promises to God n ah keong jiu jiu..