Time really flies... As of today, Baby n i have been together for a month already. time really flies n its had to catch it back. once u lose it, u'll lose it. N whteva happens during the time tt has gone can only become memories. bitter, sweet, sad, happy, whteva the emotions tt had happened, its all up to u to make it happen.
on tuesday, i had a choice to make mysself happy or sad. Either i turn up for the miting n c someone whom i dun wish to c or speak to or i stay at home n get updated. i chose the latter. not tt i really dun wana speak to tt person, buti dun wana risk getting blamed if something did happened. louis is rite, he's just waiting for things to happen. waiting for wht? i'm just saddened by the things tt happened. From a very close frd, buddy, sister, biz partner, i become someone non-exsistent in his life. I HATE liars, n by lying to God abt his promises abt me, i'm really starting to hate him.
hating someone is really really tiring. I dun wish to hate, but if i dun, i'll only b hurt. i feel exhausted, tired n if wifout Baby ard, i think i'll just collaspe one day, emotionally n physically. Mayb i shld not be so dependent on Baby, but i'm really really tired out... I'm trying to live life as happy as i can, as nonchalant as i can, if not, i'll just collaspe. I need a break. mayb i shld just chk myself into some kinda depression clinic or something... i wana scream!!!
am i really getting betta? am i?
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