Quite some tots...

As i was pondering whether to write an entry or not, friendster helped me decide since its loading freakingly slow... therefore here i am. have quite some tots nowadays just running up n down my mind n i think i better jot them down b4 they crowd my head n i cant store any more tots...

london bombings. suspected suicide bombers. 4 pple have been named. they r said to b british citizens with pakistani origin. wht r they thinking? one was a 30 year old father of one, he should b matured enough to differentiate whts rite n whts wrong. the other 3 are young adults, between 19 n 22, thy may not know how to differentiate whts wrong n whts rite but thy have a huge life, a huge future in front of them, y do it? n jus when everyone is starting to pick themselves up, more suspected packages are sprouting everywhere over england... sigh...

over here, there is a slight bombing kinda news. remb the charitable organisation i was talking abt? well, they're gonna get slammed by me once again. there is a lawsuit that was gog on the past few days. it involved them n the local paper. apperantly, the organisation's ceo had sued the paper for defamation. during the whole court hearings, dirty linen was brought out again n again...
we heard the ceo brings home 25k every month. well, he's a ceo. 25k is nothing to a company. but we're talking abt a CHARITABLE organisation here which runs on donations from the public. we donate so that he can bring a fat piece of meat home every month? mayb this is his only income, but no! he has directorship outside the organisation n one of the companies he invested in has a contract with the organisation. talk abt control issues... besides the fat meat every month, he has 10-12 month bonuses! do the math yrself, its ard 250k... again, all from public donations!
he travels in 1st class on business trips. well, anyone in a business trip would want to, wanting to feel refreshed upon arrival. n their defination of 1st class? as long as the fare doesn't exceed the business class of SIA... wht kinda logic is that? he calls its his entitlement.
he has a merc not bought using the fat meat of salary he brings home, but paid for, again, by the organisation. i understand, he is a ceo, he needs a company car. even maintance n every single bit of cash used on the car is paid for using public donations by the organisation. well, the car's not strictly used for only the organisation, the court heard that his wife uses it too. well, it might b his entitlement.
not only does he has one car, there few other cars n are all assigned a driver. wah, the public donate so much money to waste?
money in the reserves can last for at least an avg of 6 years. so tt means we can stop donating for the next 5 years. anyway, thy only have 2k patients, instead of the 3k mentioned. n patients they themselves have to pay, for one particular case, 240 a month. well, i'm actually thinking whr the 240 goes to.
my parents have stopped the monthly donations. not that we dun wana help the needy. we do want. but if everyone keeps donating, whr does the money go? who knows the ceo may just have a pay increase to 30k a month starting tmr?! nothing can be sure.
everyone is angry cos they tot every cent thy donate is for the patients, but they did not knw abt the fat meat the ceo brings home, not to mention the other staff's payscale. it was made as if we are donating blindly. to solve the issue is very simple. cut the fat meat, cut the cars, back to basics, u are a charitable non-profit fund raising organisation n let it stay this way. n dun just subsidise, pay for the patients fully. make the accounts transparent for everyone to c. i think by cutting 20k of someone's salary monthly would help save lots of patients too.

me... how am i... 5 more treatments. tt's gd news, but how i'm gonna face the world is another. i'm bald in the lower half of my head. luckily my hair is long enough to cover... i've very very ugly "tan lines" on my neck due to the radiotherapy. my skin is burnt only on the sides of my neck, how i'm gonna get rid of this unwanted tan asap is a HUGE prob... i've never felt so ugly b4. i dun even dare to tie up my hair in public... well, another way to look at it is, since there's only 5 more, very quickly, all these will be gone.
but, whn can i take spicy food again? i cant take bcos my throat will burn. literally burn. u can feel the burning sensation down the whole throat. even now my mum cooks without pepper cos i cant even take it. i miss just anything spicy, jus to name a few, bee hoon kuah, laksa, curry chicken, fish head assam curry, maggi prata with loads of curry on it, nasi briyani, black pepper french fries, nuggets/ onion rings/ french fries/ anything deep fried with loads of chilli sauce on it, indian rojak with loads of gravy, bbq stingray, crayfish and clams in chilli gravy, mee siam, mee rebus, murtabak with loads of spicy mutton n curry, kuay teow goreng thai style, nasi lemak with loads of chilli, shou gong mian with loads of chilli, just anything spicy... think i named too many, hehe...

time to go dream abt my fave bee hoon kuah...