FSV 10th anniversary reunion...

Went for the FSV 10th Year Anniversary cum Reunion thingy on Friday. It was held at Soundstage. My year had the largest turnout. Mainly i guess cos our guys r too free, not tied up wif work cos most of them are still slaves to the nation. But there are only 2 gals including me from my module! the rest were mostly from mod A. seeing everyone plus the walk ard the studios n facilities bring back lots of memories n nostalgia feelings...

3 seniors toked abt the industry n their own feelings abt the reunion. After tt we had some light snacks. i din eat a bit cos it din seemed yummy enuff. After the break, there was a short clip shown. it was edited by one of the pioneer students (who's a lecturer thr now). The clip had shots of almost all the students whom thy managed to get hold of from past projects. I think the mastermind must be Jacqueline, out studio lecturer. Most of the tapes are still wif her! Almost the 100 pple from my year were shown in the clip n we had a good laff.

We went upstairs to the studios n took a look at the facilities. I remembered the times where we snatched n rushed for the avids n editing machines. There's a plenty now n looked more like a factory. so many sets!!! Whn we went upstairs, i recalled the bitching sessions held almost daily outside the 9th floor toilet. It was also the smoking point...

I really miss the feeling of doing productions. miss the slack feeling of doing productions in school. miss the "i'm elite" feeling whn i'm studying cos FSV is the ONE n ONLY film school in singapore n we know all the cock n bullshit techinical stuff tt others dun. I miss FSV, i miss the studio life, i miss production life... All this nostalgia feeling gog thru me, i betta stop.. dun wana start crying n thn i'll start cryin non-stop for no reason at all..

Personality Test

Took a personality test at http://haleonline.com/psychtest/. Some parts of me are true. some not... some close to it, some far from it... Here it goes...

Webby test: "You're an ISFP. You're gentle and compassionate...open and flexible...considerate of others and do not for views and opinions on them. Often focus on meeting others needs...pleasant, quiet and kind....at their best ensuring others well-being. Caring and sensitive....modest and reserved.."

My opinion: Gentle? dun think so... Compassionate, depending... Open? Kinda... Flexible, depending... think i'm kinda self centered sometimes, thus i dun think i focus on miting others needs, agian, depending on situation... quiet? nah... Pple who r close to me know tt i'm damn talkative... kind? i think i'm too kind n soft hearted... Caring? shld be lah... sensitive? well as a cancerian, I think i'm overly sensitive...

Webby test: "OK...you enjoy subjects that relate to helping and knowing about people... art ... computers and history classes if these classes are taught with an applied, sensible approach.. and if objectives relate directly to everyday lives...."

My opinion: is helping out my juniors considered? Well, tt's if softball is considered a subject... Art? I do love karaoke sessions n took up ballet whn i was younger... is singing n dancing considered arts? i hate computer n history lessons!!! took thm in secondary scool. hated them. Although i kinda like "exploring" the comp, findin wht the hell is USB port, how to connect certain stuff on my own... n like to know a bit of history like wht happened, how it happened, not memorizing dates!!!! Not formal lessons.. yuck...

Weddy test: "You're somewhat artistic, aren't you? You could probably post a great poem on the Storm Palace, huh? You dislike structure, because it takes away from your spontaneity and freedom. You like leisure, and seek it out. You savor it...probably say "stop and smell the roses"...You have a personal and humorous approach that is unique..."

My opinion: I cant write for nuts! Although i like to come up wif a few lines here n there wif some tune for a song... Yep, i hate structure n love freedom, although sometimes a call for being organised is good... i dun like leisure. i love leisure! I love doing things i love to do wifout any one interupting me...

Webby test: "Patient and flexible..easy to get along with and no need to dominate others. You don't need to lead, and are a loyal follower...good team members... You're trusting and understanding..."

My opinion: patient? dun test me... whn i blow, its a volcano eruption. flexi, hmm, depends... ez to get along? well, ok lah.... dun step on my "pincers" though... true, i can follow the pack n make a good team member... but whn leadership calls for it, i'm a leader... y the hell do u think i'm in a team sports, unlike golf or tennis n enjoy working in a team environment? trusting? definately... till pple start backstabbing n betraying me. tt's whn u really get outta my sight. understanding? dun try me whn its the time of the month. I can be so blardi "understanding" tt u dun wana tok to me...

Webby test: "Love to you is utter devotion and loyalty... when you first fall in love, you may feel consumed by it...."falling in love with love" ...focus on the romance of it all..you are constantly nourishing the relationship... When scorned, you probably retreat and repeatedly analyze the situation internally....When you let go finally, you can be more assertive again..."

My opinion: Issit a thing wif cancerians again? whn we female crabs fall in love, its of utter devotion n loyalty... we fall in love hard... fullstop... period...

Webby test: "You organize things according to their personal and humanistic values. You like a work setting that contains cooperative people... leadership style involves personal loyalty as a means of motivating others... prefer team approach...likes to enjoy life..."

My opinion: read above.. a bit redundant...

Webby test: "Be careful of the following: you can lose out when you neglect your own needs. because you see others' needs so clearly, and because you're heavily motivated toward meeting others' needs, you may overlook your own requirements. You need to learn how to respect own needs more and to be assertive and direct with others in asking for their help and for time to take care of themselves."

My opinion: who doesn't lose out whn u neglect yr own needs? the above para only happens whn i become so obsessed wif my boy. But so far, i'm come to learnt a lesson, nvr to repeat yr same mistakes... once bitten twice shy... once is enuff... the hurt is too much to bear...

Webby test: "You also lose out when you are afraid of conflict and mismanage it as a result. You take personal responsibility for conflicts and issues that in actuality belong to others. You become hurt and withdraw. Finally, you can lose out when you become self-critical, and do not appreciate your own accomplishments."

My opinion: true... the personal responsibility thingy... happened more then a dozen times... But y issit always me?! hurt n withdrawn? y not? once bitten twice shy... y do u think i was in depression mode for such a long time? i do appreciate my own accomplishments! y the hell do u think i treasure my mini dvs, beta-sps n d-betas so dearly? i check n change the "thirsty hippo" inside the box tt houses my dear tapes every month! raw footage, completed works, whteva, thy are my darlings... i'll not let thm mould...

Webby test final words...: "ISFP: "I Seek Fun & Pleasure"

My opinion: who the hell doesn't like fun n pleasure? doh!

Pig's trotter...

Baby sprained his ankle while playing soccer on Sunday. Haiz, damn injury prone man... Now swollen like ter kar (pig's trotter). Not as bad as the photo his frd took at the hospital, tt looked like an elephant's foot...

Throat was feeling funny on Sunday whn i wnt over to Baby's place after the match. think i'm gog down wif cough. Luckily, its cough... Whn my throat felt so uncomfortable, i almost tot i had tonsillitis cos it din felt like a normal sore throat. went for supper later cos Baby's frd was driving. Reached home abt 3+ n played GB (gunbound)... Leveled up again, now I'm a double metal axe. abt 400 more GP I'll level up again.

Slept till quite late on Monday, n the bus 74 i took had to stop at every single bus stop!!! grrrr, the normal nite bus trip takes abt 45 mins... imagine now being doubled... backside open flower liao... Baby's foot still lok like ter kar... even today whn i went over still look like ter kar... n tt stubborn pig still wana go make specs tmr... haiz...

off to bed now...

Happy Birthday Baby!

Happy Birthday Baby! although u're 22 already, u're still a 3 yr old in my mind... hehe...

Baby, a song dedicated to you here for yr birthday... know which song issit? hehe... go figure... "I need you, baby, to warm a lonely night..."

I feel cold... trembling n shaking inside me... can't believe a frd whom i knew would be so hard-hearted... wht caused all these? who caused them? wtf really happened? just cold... very cold... my heart froze, brain froze, tears just keep running down my cheeks... just whn will i stop weeping? yes i will, whn i'm too damn fucking tired to cry anymore... n that's whn my heart will start to weep n dig a grave to bury both sad n happy memories...

Thank God for showing me a way. By coincidence, i spoke to our mutual friend. Mayb "Papa in Heaven" can feel my heart weepin too... Almost all my close frds know tt, except one, the heartless n emotionless one... the one who's in this big hooha... tt bastard dun even give a fucking damn.

Baby, i need to borrow yr shoulder... think i really need it now... *hugs* too bad u're hanging out wif the guys now... btw, i have more than 2500GP for gunbound now!!! 300 more to level up!!!

Fuck off!

I've made up my mind n decided to ignore one fucker for the rest of my life. one person who has made me so damn fuckin disappointed wif him. one person who forgotten all his promises to God abt me. One person who fuckin refuses to tok to a biz partner cos of his gf. isn't doin biz all abt communication? I'm at a dead end now. I dunno wht to do n who to speak to... A frd of ours or his mum. Cos they are the next 2 closer pple whom can help in the biz. WTF shld i do!? If he doesn't bother to have me in his life thn y shld fuckin i bother abt him? mayb i shld just fuckin drop dead n leave him to settle every shit there is. not tt i wana fuckin bother abt him, i'm more concerned in the biz. Not just only one fuckin biz, its all the big big plans we did together. fuckin bitch, can't she just grow up? y can't she be more matured? y can't ex-es be frds or biz partners?!

Baby, sorry... I promised to cheer up n not to cry... sorry baby, very sorry...

In the past, fuck is the max i'd use in terms of anger level... now, i think i need a stronger word thn fuck. hokkien stuff are already considered "baby" language... haiz...

Gunbound...

Gunbound is soooooo fun!!! Within a few days, i'm now on the 4th level, double stone axe. Its something like counterstrike but cuter n more fun. each player has a machine called the mobile. its all abt team work n shootin down the opponents. But some pple play wifout brains, even though their level is higher thn me. thy dunno how to make the best outta every mobile there is in the team. thy just stand in yr way n even if u have no aangle to shoot, thy blame u if u accidently shoot them. haiz...

Being occupied wif stuff is good, n being occupied wif things tt keep me happy is even betta. Things like gunbound n of cos, my dearest baby... My appetite nowadays improved a lot n baby even say i eat too much... hehe... Think have to control a bit lah, if not become fat pig liao...

back to gunbound.. haha...

My on-goings, chalet, Mcpepper

have not been crying, or almost crying for the past few weeks. been touring, been being wif my Baby, been keeping myself busy... even at nite, i'd have managed to tire myself out so I'd just fall asleep once i "plonk" on my bed. if not, i'd just keep thinkin of my Baby n our happy times together till i fall asleep...

NP softball had a chalet at Aranda Country Club beginnin on Wed. Checked out today... Stayed both nites. There was wireless internet connection, so brought the laptop along on the 2nd night. went off on the 2nd day afternn to meet Baby for lunch, went home to bath n change n get stuff n met Qi in the evening to buy Jiamin's bday present.

McPepper burger is back! yum yum! Just ate it for dinner wif Qi. bought something from Perlini's Silver for jiamin. Hope she likes it.

Later gonna try to play Gunbound wif Baby. Tt game quite interesting, like puzzle bobble like tt, need to shoot things one.. heheh... the interface is very cute too.

Buffet, alphabears, numb toe...

Can tell ah, past few days been playing ard wif my blog. Met up wif jie mei's for dinner on sat. Too bad winn cant make it. we ate at IMM. splendid steamboat buffet! the variety's adequate n the jap-styled soup's great! all for only $20 per pax... went to Mac for ice cream n drinks n I bought 2 "J" alphabears... Heh.. *wink wink*

Friendster's addictive... It's really fun adding yr frds n finding long lost ones... so far, i've 70+ pple on my list, n its growing... hehe...

Just when Baby managed to make the pc n laptop "c" each other in the network, the f***ed up laptop cocked up again. Cannot access internet... Dunno if its becos of the blackout this morning. Well, the contractor had to change the eletricity meter n thus, switched off the mains. So many blardi probs! or issit cos its Acer?

toking abt blackout... Thanks to the blackout, one of the fish died. Dunno if its suffocated to death or died of illness...

Yes, Baby, i know, yr dearest Liverpool (for once givin it some respect n not calling it Liverpui, the club need sympathy) lost 2-1 to Man U at Anfield!!! Muuuahahaha... Forlan again was joker of the day, falling over the barricades near the goal post n got himself stuck there...

Real lost 4-1. How the hell?! I dunno.. I was watching the match too, really damn seh... 4 goals in the first half. Goalie n defenders shouting at each other, Becks, Raul n Figo's face all seh already... Really damn humiliating for Real... more humiliating thn Liverpool...

Anyway, forgot to add an entry on Qi's bday at East Coast on the 1st. She had buffet n bbq... Food quite yummy, esp the satay... Her bf opened Absolut Kurrant n mixed a cup for us wif coke... A bit awful cos vodka always goes nicer wif 7-up... But its still my dear absolut vodka anyway! i drank only a little n jan, chee, clara tot i was drunk cos my face was lobster red... I'm not, just tt my blood circulation's superb! hehe...

haiz, n my toe's still numb...

Genting Highlands

I have a love-hate relationship wif cold weathers... Its so cooling n refreshing but at the same time, it gives me outbreaks. Yes, Genting Highlands gave me an outbreak as a advanced Xmas/ belated bday present cum welcome/ door/ hello gift. 4 bumps on my forehead now... Klooz askin me to zzz early cos of the outbreak, but there's a Champs Leagues match later...

Genting is fun... Well, like always if u know how to enjoy the stuff there. 1 nite is a tad short, but i guess 2 nites will be a tad long. mayb its the check in time thingy. We arrived at 4+ in the morning, got a Q no. at 5.30am and only got to our rooms at 10+... if only we could have gotten our rooms even earlier, lesser time had been wasted. But well, check in time was supposed to be 3pm...

Since, we're all so tired out from the waiting n bumpy bus trip, we zzz for abt an hour n headed to the theme park. Long Qs plus rain made us sit out a few rides like Corkscrew, Tabongunn n the water ride. So we went back indoors n made our money well spent.

Played n played, thn dinner time. After dinner, we went shopping. Bought 3 Jap serials. Money spent on these vcds is the happiest money i spent in Genting so far cos they're nowhere to be found in SG. N cos klooz took such a longggg time trying clothes, Dylon n Eric went missing... Found them back at the hotel corridor just ouside our room. we rested for a while, bathed n caught a movie, The Rundown. The movie's censored, n I hate censored movies! anyway, it cost only 7 ringgit... so much thn SG's ticks, even whn compared to the super off-peak periods.

After the movie, we went to a place all above 21s must go if u go Genting. The Kasino! (Malay for casino lah...) Suggested to Klooz to play the 1 sen (Malay for cent) jackpot. took out 10 ringgit as stake. Din lost any money but won 15 in the end. Klooz got a very lucky hand.. hehe... After casino, all hungry again... cooked our instant noodles n pigged out at Dylon/Eric's room, playing Dai Dee at the same time, sleepin only at 4am...

Woke up at 8am, washed up n off the take the cable car ride down. Damn, phobia of heights kicked in... On the way down, it was still quite ok... On the way up, I was almost gonna cry already... Damn scary... Ate my fave chicken mushroom bechemel at the Delifrance there n bought some local products. Aso my faves like chilli tapioca chip, normal tapioca chips, prune sweets n cashew nuts!

Went back up to the hotel, freshen up, rest a little n checked out. after check out we went to the Galleria to take a look at the whole of Genting Highlands. I kept away from the windows... only peeking ard at the scenery once in a while... We still had a little time on hand, so Eric went to the casino, while I went to get my Baskin Robbins 31 Ice Cream!!! Yummy!!!! I love Baskin Robbins. my childhood taste...

We all met back at the hotel lobby, took some pics n headed to the bus to begin the bumpy ride back to SG.

Btw, my ice cream became cream.. haiz... same amt of time spent just like the other time... Mayb the other time, dry ice was used instead of the normal ice... Also, First World Hotel sucks... Big time... The other hotels in Genting are so much betta..

Stone, shit, sleep...

First entry of the month... heh... Anyway, laptop's giving loads of trouble, dad say will bring to acer to get it done later...

Loggin in, I aso dunno wht to write abt... Have yet to finish writing abt the China trip. Just stoning...

Been shitting watery shit the past few days... Not really diarrhoea but just watery shit... Dunno y aso... Haiz, weak lah...

Sleepy... tired... slept at 2+am ystday, only wakin up at 11am... I'm already yawning away now... Where's the energy in me? The energy to stay up almost the whole nite... The energy to survive wif not much slp...

zzz...