Why Is This Happening?

I'm feeling lost. It used to be so absolutely perfect. I really don't know how to begin... What's really happening?

You always say that after I have recovered, I've changed, but have you? All I know is that tempers rise much easier compared to the past. Perhaps it the stress we are facing. But somehow, why am I being blamed?

It is no one's fault and we should shake it off instead of nit picking the factors of what's happening and finding who to the blame for it. I have always been blur, stupid, dumb and slow and you know it. Control, curb, cool down, relax...

I had a dream nightmare the other day. Some guy was wooing me, but I have you and he has someone else too. Apparently, that guy was kinda good looking and was asking me to leave with him. I got woken, or rather, shock-ened up. It is something I absolutely don't want it to happen. It's scary as sometimes dreams do come true, think, deja vu.

Tears, you gotta stop flowing...