The only alternative is the next alternative...

IVP 2003's officially over. Gals got 3rd, guys got nothing. It's like "as per normal", guys get nothing every year and this year's team in comparision is kinda strong to yesteryears. Haizzz... Next year will be a betta year, i really hope.

i was thinging abt something just now. Shld a person in life have very good frds or very close buddies.

Frds are like always there for u, u can tell them everything wifout worrying.

Buddies are aso always there for u, but u can't tell them everything cos u dun wan them to worry for u and most of the time you're taken for granted cos there's no word of thanks or sorry. The relationship between this group is funny. Normally, u'll listen to the advice of pple who are your "buddies", but because these real buddies are really too close, so some how or rather, u'll just ignore wht thy say even if it makes sense. Rebellious nature? Mayb. Thanks to Adma n Eve who passed us this rebellious nature? Excuses... can choose not to but well as guys always say this excuse "wait till i find the rite one lah, i die for her aso can"... well well...

Its the end of Sept. Shld be ready to pack soon. Who knows, die in a plane crash and wht i said n who i adviced on will aso not regret not listening. Mayb all this while I'm toking nothing but just rubbish pple dun seem to care whn i care. or issit back to the rebellious nature excuse again? Hmm, mayb the SQ fight shld change to China Airlines thn really plane crash dunno if there're regrets. Most prob not. heartless pple? Mayb. Learnt something after 22 years of life... Dun give more thn u receive. No one will bother anyway.

You know in those drama serials set in the olden times, pple DO listen to advices n regretted not listening to them after someone-close's death. Doubt it happens in real life now. After all they're just stories n characters in reel life.

Wnt over to take a look at the irc window just a sec ago after finishing the above para. q n bugger playing the op-deop game again, tis time round, on me... Strict ops thingy again.

Whn you're emotionally down, weird ideas just come to your mind. even watching happytreefriends dun cheer u up, nothing does. you'll only cheer up whn u blast away at the person(s) responsible for this and who in the rite mind will let u blast away like tt. I dun. The only way, cry n cry n cry away, at least for me... Tt's my way of venting out my fustrations, blah blah...

Mayb like wht another of my frd said, "lower self expectations esp if those expectations need actions from others". Well, its ok if thy dun listen, I'll just stop toking. No point in wasting my breath... But mayb because i care, tt's y i tok. only way to stop caring is to turn heartless or maybe disappear from this world... cancerians rule by their emotions, so heartless is out. the only alternative is the next alternative...