Friday, September 05, 2003

Depression? Sian? What the f***....

My entries are "limited edition' stuff cos I only update it like once a month.

Some things just got cocked up, would have gotten abt $25 more next month... Haiz... Huge promotions going on next week n the week after, thus less money on nail stuff n beads this month...

Y issit when I tell someone some things, tt fella will ignore, dun care. And when things really happen, its no point saying sorry and saying will learn from mistake. most of the time, it just happens again. And whn other pple tell tt fella, tt fella will listen. Mayb I shld tok less to tt fella, seems like sometimes really no point toking aso... Mayb God should really take me away cos tt fella dun listen whn i tok, so wht's the point of toking and being ard and getting flared up at and treated like a punching bag and only know how to argue whn i'm trying to tok sense abt listenin to me, things wun happen...

I usually dun think much of TCS 8 modern "life" serials, but kinda like the one showing at the 9pm slot... Wouldn't it be nice to set up a business wif very close frds? You get to c each other everyday, tok to each other everyday. Mayb cos there's an office environment afterall. But its really nice... One of them wasn't feeling well so went back home to rest. The other 2 went over to her place to visit her n even whipped up a meal.

This kinda friendship is so pure untill the love triangles that eventually entangle the 3 of them. Tt of cos, (Lord i pray) will not happen again. Happened abt 3 years back, and that will be the last and only time. Friendships are built on trust and i hope that this trust will only increase and not break.

After today's episode and my "pins n needles" tummy the nite before, really dun feel rite. Sometimes i really think to myself am i taken for granted or friendships should be wht's depicted in the show. Mayb I'm just paranoid that if i should die or hospitalized (which i tot cos the pain was unbearable n i let myself think too much, imagining it was appendicitis), no one would even know... But it's really true when you can actually "count" the no. of frds you have by being hospitalized wif a life-threatening thingy, be it accident or Sars... Btw, seems that Sars might be back wif a vengence...

Mayb I'm just gog thru another bout of depression thingy again, just like how jen describes it... Once in a while, you'll just feel everything's not rite...

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