Thursday, November 22, 2007

Backaches = Cancer Relapse? Hope Not...

Since yesterday, I had a little soreness kinda feeling in my lower back. Today, the soreness has "escalated" and this backache is so so familiar, I had to hide my sobs in the toilet just now. Fear gripes me. I can only pray and wish that I would not have any fevers. The same areas are hurting, just like when my cancer spread to my liver, it is just that now, I don't have any fevers yet.

My ultrasound done last month on the 9th showed that my liver was clear. Please remain that way. For almost 2 years, I had managed to pick my life up all over again, I DO NOT want to feel wasted AGAIN!!! I can't afford a relapse, not now, not least till I celebrate Dear and mine 3rd year anniversary with properly belated, not least till I celebrate Dear's birthday properly belated, not least till I graduate.

About a week ago, WeAreWonderWomen.Com linked my blog to theirs, which I only realised a few days back. Hectic schedules did not allow me much time to shout on the shoutbox at Ping.sg, let alone blog or check my techonorati, blog stats, social networking, etc accounts. Thank You for the link.

And YES, I want to remain a Wonder Woman!!! Backaches will be gone tomorrow!!!

15 comments:

Rachel said...

Hi, hope you are well. Best wishes R

daphne maia said...

u are my wonderwoman, babe. since i've known u, u've really been an inspiration to me.

ur zest really amazes me. nothing will happen to u. *hugs* be positive! :)

*muaks!*

Jas aka paced said...

Thanks Rachel!

Jas aka paced said...

Dpahne, Thanks. But scared lah. Too familiar; the pain, areas and all.

arzhou said...

Dun worry too much about it k. Have you gone to see a doctor?

I am sure you will be fine, stay strong!

nadnut said...

hugs! stay positive! take care babe! when are we meeting up?!

chillycraps said...

you'll be alright, paced!!

*sees paced's battery full*

Jas aka paced said...

Arzhou: Thanks. Nope, haven't seen the doc yet. Waiting till tmr to kinda confirm if it's just a normal backache or if it is THAT backache...

Nad: Thanks gal! Oh yah, we always wana say wana meet up, but never materialise one... haha... Damn bz now leh. Paiseh.

CC: Thanks!

xinyun said...

*hugs paced*

don't worry sweetie, it's probably stress related or you didn't get enough rest.

do take care and rest more :)

Larry Lim said...

I won't say I know what you're going through, but my wife had lymphoma when she was 25 and I was with her at SGH everyday during the treatment.

Be strong and draw strength from your family. We'll be praying for you.

DK said...

Hope you are alrite. Take care.

Cobalt Paladin said...

Don't worry, it could be just 风湿. The weather has been cold. :p

Don't worry and don't let your imagination run wild.

WokkingMum said...

Hope you will be okay. Be strong!

NTT said...

Hey.. Don't worry about it.. You will be just fine.. Just believe in yourself... :)

Jas aka paced said...

xinyun: Thanks gal. I really really hope it is due to stress and not enough rest. Plus the fact I've been lugging my laptop and video camera to school for the past 2 weeks, i think my back is screaming at me to lighten my load. Haha...

Larry: Thanks! Though I do not know you personally, it is really touching and heartwarming to have encouragements. Thanks again!

DK: Thanks! I hope I'm alrite too. Hehe...

CP: I do hope so, but the pain is different from that leh. But never mind, I'll stay positive!

WokkingMum: Thanks for your encouragement!

NTT: Yes, I will believe that it is cos I'm not getting enough rest! Hehe... Thanks!