Gambatte

On thursday late morning, i got a call from the record company again. Apparently they had some restructing and thus that explains the delay of the call. and since they had restructing, a new store manager wanted to see me. again i went down after work...
Friday evening, i got a call from them again. i got the job and will be starting work on monday at 6pm.

i told dear n mum abt it. both of them are afraid that i'll tire myself out and will not get enough sleep. but i ensured them that its for only one month cos my contract with CP ends 30th april. officially its only 25 days more with them. although i won know my roster with the record store till mayb monday, i'm quite sure they wont ask me to work 7 days a week. so, in a sense, for 2 nites in a week i can get to sleep early.

time management is the key now. i can take breakfast on the way to suntec in the morning or like wht i usually do, at work, but have to make sure i take my medicine by 8.30 so i can take the next dose at 4.30pm. at least i can have the comfort of eating at a table. if i want to, i can also choose to eat on the way to work between 5-6. once i get used to the timing, i might be able to squeeze in time for dinner at the table outside the record store's security. for the 3 times i've been there, i always seen pple eating their dinner there. timing for breakfast n dinner a bit tricky when i have to take medicine. when i'm off the course, timing for vitamins is not as important as my medication.

mental strength is also important. as someone who has played sports, i've learnt that mental strength must overcome your physical n mental tiredness. this must definately be applied to me now. I may lack the stamina for 2 jobs, but i must use mental strength to overcome it.

i can always choose to quit either one. but the record store one is important to me, cos its a long term part time job just like taka. and who knows after my degree course, i might ot might not be able to get a full time job there in the backroom so staying there is a long term option for me.
At CP, environment's hostile, life's kinda boring. but a few are nice. the gal i'm reliefing only comes back in may. n being soft-hearted n a reponsible sweet little charming gal (heh), if i were to go, my team lead would need to pratically "camp" in the office. i feel bad leaving. i already feel bad enough cos although i should be helping her, i leave on time most of the time, but she ots and goes back on saturdays. and another pulling point to stay there is the bond. I have to pay back the number of days i didnt work till end april. mayb if i really cannot take it, i'll quit last week of april...

I've to chase back the time i've lost. Gambatte!

Messy...

Was supposed to take only the afternoon off ystday. But Dr Hwang could only make it back to the clinic today morning... Apparently, she was only flying back ystday evening. so today morning i took off to see her.
The CT scan done on saturday was collected ystday after lunch. Went to see Dr Khor, had dinner then went home. Dear slept over and this morning we went to see Dr Hwang. Upon seeing the scans n report, she kept smiling. She was very happy with the results, so was I... hehe...

When i got back to the office today afternoon. I was cursing n swearing under my breath. my table was in a complete mess and the orders i was following up on was on someone's else table. all these were ok, till i finished declaring the outward permit for one. i called the shipping line cos the draft b/l by them was dated 20th and i wanted to make sure the b/l would be sent down today. alas, the vsl only sailed off today morning, and the b/l dated 21st. i mumbled "fuck" silently after checking the b/l to c that it had faint pencil marks on it. i usually would check the draft b/l and fax them with the remarks like "b/l ok. pls send over/ to collect once vsl sail". these words were "blanko-ed" off, but i din make much of it. Then it came upon me that i had written the sailing off date in pencil on the draft b/l so i could track myself. that particular someone had erased the date off! Y? most prob, that was an email "rushing" for the docs to be faxed or scan n emailed over. so i declared the date on the permit worngly. but i heck cared. why should i clean up the shit for that someone?

messy n kan cheong spider... i really hate working with this kinda pple. kan cheong is already enough. messy is another. add the 2, tt's ultimate already! now i have to deal with this kinda person... email come in heck care lah... after all vsl haven even sail, y bother to respond to them? what's wrong with waiting another 24 hours n u will have the original b/l to fax even though "a draft b/l will suffice". in this case, the draft is dated 20th, so customers will assume that their goods left singapore on the 20th. if the goods arrive one day later, then u'll have to explain again. haiz, this kinda pple will only know how to make more things to do. oh, that particular someone even kept complaing to pple that 'it' is very busy. 'it' even went back on saturday to clear work! hmm, if u this spider cut down "entertaining" these other spiders, u'll free up loads of time yrself...

heng, i'll only need to tahan till end-april... phew...

Too Many Needs & Wants, Too Little Of Everything Else

This illness took away quite a number of things, but gave me quite a number too.
I lost a position in a working environment which i love but kept a friend cos it din seemed i put her outta a job.
I seemed to be distant to a lot of my friends cos i was too sleepy n tired to go out most of the time, but gained silent moral support from them and new found friends who stumble upon my case.
If i had the financial capabilities, Dear and I would be able to do some better planning for our future. If I had the financial capabilities, I would be able to go travelling, which is something I love. If I had the financial capabilities, I would be able to own a LV handbag myself without envy-ing youths younger then me carrying the real thing around. If I had the financial capabilities, I would be able to support this illness and all its follow-up check ups myself.

But I tell myself... I have nothing now. Everything's back to square one. I'll be studying again. "Buying" my way into an industry I like. Getting a job that would definately pay me better now. Meanwhile during my breaks, I'll get some part time job to get some allowance.

Its time to "revamp" my friendster profile and "re-organise" it. But I dun have the time n energy for it.
I wana continue my driving lessons n get my license b4 my final theory expires in november, but after work I'll be too tired. N i want my weekends for sleeping. for the last 3 saturdays, i've been waking up early for various kinda reasons.
I wana start searching for something and have to do it by april. but i dun have time n energy for it.
I wana volunteer for CCF, but I dun have the time n energy.
I feel tired and drained, after just these 3 weeks of working. I realise i dun have the stamina. After work, i would feel so tempted to take a cab back home, and sometimes i do fall for the temptation. When i reach home, I just dun wana do anything, not even watch tv. I just wana eat n then sleep. I need to sleep. Even now, today, I hardly talked, my mum n sis were asking me questions, i gave them one word answers. I need time to stone n rest.

I slept at 10+pm ystday nite, n woke up at 11am today. i wonder how i'm gonna get to sleep early tonite cos i really dun wanna sleep late n end up getting not enough sleep n thn it would be a vicious cycle. luckily tmr aftnn I got appt wif dr khor. so i can go home early. suppose to c dr hwang tmr too, but she'll only b back tmr evening. so gog to c her on tuesday morning instead, so i can get a little more sleep...

I want to complete my Vodka collection.
I want my wardrobe to be filled with anything from Mango, DKNY, AX, Levi's jeans, LV, Hermes Birkins, Marc Jacobs shoes and Tiffany accessories...
I want my room to be filled with Hello Kitty plushes.
I want a Vertu handphone.
I want a pink Mini Cooper.
I want a job that will pay for all these... haha... hopefully... I must Jia You! Gambatte!
I must admit I have expensive taste, but it's still a few notches down from those tai tais... hahaha...

Eventful Week

The last entry was done in jest/ zest, whteva... i was damn fed up cos a lot of decrepancies came back from the bank n i dunno wht in the hell they wanted... although i did handled LCs in the past, i never came across n did such troublesome ones! now i really truely understood faridah's fustrations when trying to nego with the bank over all these stupid bo liao docs...

i need sleep terribly... i've started work 2 weeks n averaged only 6-7 hours of sleep each nite. i'm used to clocking in 10 hours for 10 months already... i need to live healthy n sleeping at least 4 hours after yr last meal of the day is part of it. n its becos of this i cannot skip dinner so i "lose" sleep (sleep 11-12 n wake up at 6) cos i need to take my medication. i cant have dinner any earlier cos i need to have my medication at least 8 hours apart... but this week would b ok to skip dinner or have it earlier, cos i'm just on my vitamin B6. i would need this week to "recover" sleep. besides these reasons, i've been waking up early these 2 saturdays... cant really sleep in on sundays cos i wun be able to sleep at nite, n it would become a vicious cycle all over again...

but, F1 is back! tmr's 1st race at bahrain. dear says schumi will win this year... dunno true or not.

i love my workplace now cos it has internet... lol... i can do doing work with online streaming from class 95 (now 3 colleagues asked me how i got live streaming from class 95 already), msn switched on n chatting. dun have such luxury when at EM. But i thk i like machiam abuse the internet connection cos its meant for processing of B/Ls online. hehe...

the record store din call me... i thk 2nd interview buang liao...

Met up with some EM colleagues on thursday at vienna for duffet dinner. felt so good seeing them. been so long i haven been talking to them already. really missed them n the good old times at JLT. faridah say, now i cannot scream like i used to liao, which was true... when i was fustrated with the indonesia orders n customers or LC cannot nego, i would scream out to vent out my fustrations. now i just mumbled under my breath. at EM, the situation is definately less "tense" cos its a warehouse environment with the forklifts running outside n i'm inside a small room with another few colleagues. over here at CP, the big bosses are just across the office, n there's nothing to cover yr voice if u shout. really missed the times when i could "wah lau!" n grumble mumble grumble, n shout "damn idiot lor". now, i can only sigh n sigh silently... talked n talked so so much that i hoped time could stood still n we could chat some more...

Troublesome

Toopid 'ah ney' L/Cs... damn troublesome... damn!

Sunshine After The Rain

Dear got me a new ring last weekend. It is the excate same design like the one I had lost. the shop was having sale at its branches and there were loads of people, still we managed to get it after waiting to be served for so long... hehe... From that night onwards, i no longer cried to sleep, no longer felt that Dear isn't beside me. after 4 long days that felt like eons, I finally felt safe...

One week at work, so far so good. Although i'm doing excately what i used to do at EM, its slightly different here at CPCA. Here we have to PGI and invoice ourselves, at EM, after warehouse PGI, the invoice will auto generate by the system the next day. At EM, the warehouse prepares the COA for us, we just have to add in customer's details if L/C calls for it, here, all COA's are done by ourselves and each one needs to have customer's details on it. SICC COO is done electronically over here, not like at EM, where its manual and we have to ask PTC to help us bring to SICC for endorsement. We also have to type the insurance cert ourselves, whereas in EM, our colleagues in Thailand do the job.

And i just started to realise that its not only EM's "ah neh" customers' L/C calls for loads of nonsense shitty docs, all "ah neh" L/Cs are like tt... they even need a fax report to "prove" that u had actually faxed over the docs to the customer. When at EM, i used to hear Faridah complaining abt these L/Cs cos sometimes they ask for more types of docs then they usually do. and since i was doing Philippines customers' L/Cs, i already think that they are troublesome enough... now i really know her pain after going thru these more irritating L/Cs, really can faint and make your blood boil... esp after the decrep list comes back...

But its the same old story... customer chase for docs even when the vsl has just left in the morning. Luckily, i dun have to bother with emails... haha... all i would need to so is to do docs, that's all. but then again, i still cant escape the calls for chasing b/l drafts to come in and the calls to the bank to nego the L/Cs. Shipping documentation is fun... esp the L/C part. I always aim for no descrep, one time clear. Hope i'll be able to achieve that here!

But this is only for 2 months, i really need to get used to it fast. cos being familiar with the customers and the requirements really helps, just like at EM, open one eye, close one eye still can do. But here, have to really concentrate n think n remember hard... after almost a year never touch SAP system, it really feels a bit weird. Even going thru the menus seem hard... have to click here n there b4 i can find certain things. damn, i have to get familiarise again... but then again, mayb the layout is a bit different, so i'm a bit 'lost'...

Having a 2nd round interview with the record store on Monday. I hope to get the job so at least working on weekends can bring in a bit of money. But i really leave it up to God to judge if my health will be able to take it. If He knows my health can take it, He'll let me sail thru the 2nd interview and get the job. If not, I wouldn't get it. Papa in Heaven, i leave the decision to You k...