The only alternative is the next alternative...

IVP 2003's officially over. Gals got 3rd, guys got nothing. It's like "as per normal", guys get nothing every year and this year's team in comparision is kinda strong to yesteryears. Haizzz... Next year will be a betta year, i really hope.

i was thinging abt something just now. Shld a person in life have very good frds or very close buddies.

Frds are like always there for u, u can tell them everything wifout worrying.

Buddies are aso always there for u, but u can't tell them everything cos u dun wan them to worry for u and most of the time you're taken for granted cos there's no word of thanks or sorry. The relationship between this group is funny. Normally, u'll listen to the advice of pple who are your "buddies", but because these real buddies are really too close, so some how or rather, u'll just ignore wht thy say even if it makes sense. Rebellious nature? Mayb. Thanks to Adma n Eve who passed us this rebellious nature? Excuses... can choose not to but well as guys always say this excuse "wait till i find the rite one lah, i die for her aso can"... well well...

Its the end of Sept. Shld be ready to pack soon. Who knows, die in a plane crash and wht i said n who i adviced on will aso not regret not listening. Mayb all this while I'm toking nothing but just rubbish pple dun seem to care whn i care. or issit back to the rebellious nature excuse again? Hmm, mayb the SQ fight shld change to China Airlines thn really plane crash dunno if there're regrets. Most prob not. heartless pple? Mayb. Learnt something after 22 years of life... Dun give more thn u receive. No one will bother anyway.

You know in those drama serials set in the olden times, pple DO listen to advices n regretted not listening to them after someone-close's death. Doubt it happens in real life now. After all they're just stories n characters in reel life.

Wnt over to take a look at the irc window just a sec ago after finishing the above para. q n bugger playing the op-deop game again, tis time round, on me... Strict ops thingy again.

Whn you're emotionally down, weird ideas just come to your mind. even watching happytreefriends dun cheer u up, nothing does. you'll only cheer up whn u blast away at the person(s) responsible for this and who in the rite mind will let u blast away like tt. I dun. The only way, cry n cry n cry away, at least for me... Tt's my way of venting out my fustrations, blah blah...

Mayb like wht another of my frd said, "lower self expectations esp if those expectations need actions from others". Well, its ok if thy dun listen, I'll just stop toking. No point in wasting my breath... But mayb because i care, tt's y i tok. only way to stop caring is to turn heartless or maybe disappear from this world... cancerians rule by their emotions, so heartless is out. the only alternative is the next alternative...

Neopets. Sis. Champs league. IVP.

Reading blogs and writing them seem to be the things I'll do whn I can't get to zzz and I've nothing to do and maybe a few complains...

Neopets is filled wif kids, kids and more kids. I'm having fun having a home and a shop, although its not happening in real life yet. And these KIDS, oh boy, u know wht thy do?

1) After u buy up all their nonsense loss-making items in their shop, thy neomail u asking u to be their neofriend.

2) Thy dun mind making NO profit or any loss by selling their items lower n lower wif every search wif the shop wizard. Let's say u price yours at 77, they'll price it at 76 n then another will price it at 75 n thn another at 74. Adoi, can't thy just buy up the lower one n sell it slightly higher? Even if thy have no more money left to buy up, just price it as 77 (or as the lowest price given in the search wizard). 1np is aso money mah. KIDS...

Toking abt kids, the terror kid in my house is getting freaking irritating as the day passes. All I have to do is to ask her to lower the tv vol, and her voice goes louder thn the tv is already. N as my parents hate noise in the house, thy'll go "let her be". She's as spoilt as a frigging brat (worse thn anyone can imagine) compared to those spoilt frigging brats acted out in tv, even spoiler. Mayb she shld be the one acting in those spoilt bratty roles. I really need to move out, can't take these nonsense anymore... Anyone can put me up for free rental?

Opening match for Champs League... Man U won 5-0, Real won 4-2. My Becks din scored, but my Solks did. Heh... N ARSEnal LOST... hahahahahhahaha... Cannot gloat ah, its bad to gloat at pple's loss. hhahahahaha...

Did my nails ystday n today. Not too bad... Hehe... Painted the base ystday, added the 2nd colour, shimmers n flowers (gem stones type) today. Too bad no where to upload...

IVP's on again... NP lost to SP in the opening match, both gals n guys team. Haizzz... 1 down, 2 more matches to go. Hope we can win NTU, thy're not tt good either, matchable... As for NUS, its only hoping n hoping, thy have pitchers n thy're batting's aggressive, wishing n hoping...

Y would pple lose directions in life even whn thy actually know wht thy want. Issit cos thy're just plain lazy to excecute it? Haiz...

No other nonsense, back to neopets to deal wif those kiddys...

Depression? Sian? What the f***....

My entries are "limited edition' stuff cos I only update it like once a month.

Some things just got cocked up, would have gotten abt $25 more next month... Haiz... Huge promotions going on next week n the week after, thus less money on nail stuff n beads this month...

Y issit when I tell someone some things, tt fella will ignore, dun care. And when things really happen, its no point saying sorry and saying will learn from mistake. most of the time, it just happens again. And whn other pple tell tt fella, tt fella will listen. Mayb I shld tok less to tt fella, seems like sometimes really no point toking aso... Mayb God should really take me away cos tt fella dun listen whn i tok, so wht's the point of toking and being ard and getting flared up at and treated like a punching bag and only know how to argue whn i'm trying to tok sense abt listenin to me, things wun happen...

I usually dun think much of TCS 8 modern "life" serials, but kinda like the one showing at the 9pm slot... Wouldn't it be nice to set up a business wif very close frds? You get to c each other everyday, tok to each other everyday. Mayb cos there's an office environment afterall. But its really nice... One of them wasn't feeling well so went back home to rest. The other 2 went over to her place to visit her n even whipped up a meal.

This kinda friendship is so pure untill the love triangles that eventually entangle the 3 of them. Tt of cos, (Lord i pray) will not happen again. Happened abt 3 years back, and that will be the last and only time. Friendships are built on trust and i hope that this trust will only increase and not break.

After today's episode and my "pins n needles" tummy the nite before, really dun feel rite. Sometimes i really think to myself am i taken for granted or friendships should be wht's depicted in the show. Mayb I'm just paranoid that if i should die or hospitalized (which i tot cos the pain was unbearable n i let myself think too much, imagining it was appendicitis), no one would even know... But it's really true when you can actually "count" the no. of frds you have by being hospitalized wif a life-threatening thingy, be it accident or Sars... Btw, seems that Sars might be back wif a vengence...

Mayb I'm just gog thru another bout of depression thingy again, just like how jen describes it... Once in a while, you'll just feel everything's not rite...