Buffet, alphabears, numb toe...

Can tell ah, past few days been playing ard wif my blog. Met up wif jie mei's for dinner on sat. Too bad winn cant make it. we ate at IMM. splendid steamboat buffet! the variety's adequate n the jap-styled soup's great! all for only $20 per pax... went to Mac for ice cream n drinks n I bought 2 "J" alphabears... Heh.. *wink wink*

Friendster's addictive... It's really fun adding yr frds n finding long lost ones... so far, i've 70+ pple on my list, n its growing... hehe...

Just when Baby managed to make the pc n laptop "c" each other in the network, the f***ed up laptop cocked up again. Cannot access internet... Dunno if its becos of the blackout this morning. Well, the contractor had to change the eletricity meter n thus, switched off the mains. So many blardi probs! or issit cos its Acer?

toking abt blackout... Thanks to the blackout, one of the fish died. Dunno if its suffocated to death or died of illness...

Yes, Baby, i know, yr dearest Liverpool (for once givin it some respect n not calling it Liverpui, the club need sympathy) lost 2-1 to Man U at Anfield!!! Muuuahahaha... Forlan again was joker of the day, falling over the barricades near the goal post n got himself stuck there...

Real lost 4-1. How the hell?! I dunno.. I was watching the match too, really damn seh... 4 goals in the first half. Goalie n defenders shouting at each other, Becks, Raul n Figo's face all seh already... Really damn humiliating for Real... more humiliating thn Liverpool...

Anyway, forgot to add an entry on Qi's bday at East Coast on the 1st. She had buffet n bbq... Food quite yummy, esp the satay... Her bf opened Absolut Kurrant n mixed a cup for us wif coke... A bit awful cos vodka always goes nicer wif 7-up... But its still my dear absolut vodka anyway! i drank only a little n jan, chee, clara tot i was drunk cos my face was lobster red... I'm not, just tt my blood circulation's superb! hehe...

haiz, n my toe's still numb...

Genting Highlands

I have a love-hate relationship wif cold weathers... Its so cooling n refreshing but at the same time, it gives me outbreaks. Yes, Genting Highlands gave me an outbreak as a advanced Xmas/ belated bday present cum welcome/ door/ hello gift. 4 bumps on my forehead now... Klooz askin me to zzz early cos of the outbreak, but there's a Champs Leagues match later...

Genting is fun... Well, like always if u know how to enjoy the stuff there. 1 nite is a tad short, but i guess 2 nites will be a tad long. mayb its the check in time thingy. We arrived at 4+ in the morning, got a Q no. at 5.30am and only got to our rooms at 10+... if only we could have gotten our rooms even earlier, lesser time had been wasted. But well, check in time was supposed to be 3pm...

Since, we're all so tired out from the waiting n bumpy bus trip, we zzz for abt an hour n headed to the theme park. Long Qs plus rain made us sit out a few rides like Corkscrew, Tabongunn n the water ride. So we went back indoors n made our money well spent.

Played n played, thn dinner time. After dinner, we went shopping. Bought 3 Jap serials. Money spent on these vcds is the happiest money i spent in Genting so far cos they're nowhere to be found in SG. N cos klooz took such a longggg time trying clothes, Dylon n Eric went missing... Found them back at the hotel corridor just ouside our room. we rested for a while, bathed n caught a movie, The Rundown. The movie's censored, n I hate censored movies! anyway, it cost only 7 ringgit... so much thn SG's ticks, even whn compared to the super off-peak periods.

After the movie, we went to a place all above 21s must go if u go Genting. The Kasino! (Malay for casino lah...) Suggested to Klooz to play the 1 sen (Malay for cent) jackpot. took out 10 ringgit as stake. Din lost any money but won 15 in the end. Klooz got a very lucky hand.. hehe... After casino, all hungry again... cooked our instant noodles n pigged out at Dylon/Eric's room, playing Dai Dee at the same time, sleepin only at 4am...

Woke up at 8am, washed up n off the take the cable car ride down. Damn, phobia of heights kicked in... On the way down, it was still quite ok... On the way up, I was almost gonna cry already... Damn scary... Ate my fave chicken mushroom bechemel at the Delifrance there n bought some local products. Aso my faves like chilli tapioca chip, normal tapioca chips, prune sweets n cashew nuts!

Went back up to the hotel, freshen up, rest a little n checked out. after check out we went to the Galleria to take a look at the whole of Genting Highlands. I kept away from the windows... only peeking ard at the scenery once in a while... We still had a little time on hand, so Eric went to the casino, while I went to get my Baskin Robbins 31 Ice Cream!!! Yummy!!!! I love Baskin Robbins. my childhood taste...

We all met back at the hotel lobby, took some pics n headed to the bus to begin the bumpy ride back to SG.

Btw, my ice cream became cream.. haiz... same amt of time spent just like the other time... Mayb the other time, dry ice was used instead of the normal ice... Also, First World Hotel sucks... Big time... The other hotels in Genting are so much betta..

Stone, shit, sleep...

First entry of the month... heh... Anyway, laptop's giving loads of trouble, dad say will bring to acer to get it done later...

Loggin in, I aso dunno wht to write abt... Have yet to finish writing abt the China trip. Just stoning...

Been shitting watery shit the past few days... Not really diarrhoea but just watery shit... Dunno y aso... Haiz, weak lah...

Sleepy... tired... slept at 2+am ystday, only wakin up at 11am... I'm already yawning away now... Where's the energy in me? The energy to stay up almost the whole nite... The energy to survive wif not much slp...

zzz...

Running on XP now...

Been bz backing up data n upgrading my comp. Running on XP now!!! Cleared all those stupid spyware n viruses... Its like having a brand new comp... So shiok...

Besides this, helping my coach aso in his FJSS softball carnival. Not too bad, keepin myself bz till the end of this month. Will start my driving lessons next month...

I just realised some things... Firstly, I tire easily.. very easily.. I slept at 2am+ ystday n only woke up at 4pm+ today, n now i'm already yawning away... Whn i opened my eyes at ard 10am, my eyes just closed back, just too tired to get up.

Secondly, I'm the most vulnerable at nite. Maybe in the mornings whn i just wake up, my brain's dead, not working, just a blank mind, just stoned n half awake... At nite, whn i'm most active, cos i'm a nite owl, if i dun do anything, i'll feel at a loss, just feel like crying... mayb goin for driving lessons a bit dangerous ah?

Thirdly, i'm very thirsty... Just feel like drinking n drinkin...

Fourthly, I've no appetite although i'm hungry... I can only take a few bites n thn after some time, the hungry pangs kick in again. I force myself to eat whn i'm outside cos there isnt any "biteable" small sized treats with me.

Last but not least, I'm putting on a mask in front of everyone. I may be toking, chatting happily whn i'm wif anyone, but once i'm alone, the sian-ness n down-ness kicks in, n if i dun keep myself bz, i'll feel loss n start to cry... so whnever i'm on the bus, i'll watch tvmobile, if not play mahjong on my hp... i need pple to tok to n keep me company. Asking abt the condition is ok, but pls dun probe too much if i dun feel like toking abt it...

Thanks to everyone who have shown me care n concern all this while. Luv ya all! God will bless good pple lile all of u....

Btw, Yanks lost the World Series title to Marlins. yes, u can repeat again, who the hell are the Marlins...

I need a doc...

Finding the courage to ask my mum to bring me to c a doc n if not a doc, at least wht cresp says, a clinic which can provide lab tests to chk my hormone levels...

Spent the whole aftnn out just now... Lunch, pool, dinner, movie... i was almost on the verge of crying during dinner, but held back my tears cos dun wan klooz to worry. I really din know y... Thinking back hard at wht happened just now n the surroundings. No sad songs, no sad tv shows, nothing... I was just looking down n was concentrating eating my pasta... But I almost dropped tears! y?!I REALLY shld get myself checked. REALLY...

Period is late... by a week... I almost tot it'll not come this month. Really scare me... scared me not in the pregnant sense, but in worrying if my condition might take for a worse. Well, later is betta thn never rite?

To bro...

Wht shld blogs n journals be? Writing abt sad negative stuff or writing abt happy cheerful stuff or shld it be both?

pple close to me shld know I hate being a 3rd party or being invovled in others r/ships. y am i now? y issit tt my closest frd, a buddy, a bro's gf dun like him toking or miting me? however he explains to me, i jus cant understand it. but now i believe n c tt the power of true love is so great. it even can make someone forget his dreams and not do anything. Even if it means distancing himself from close frds of the opposite sex. All becos of a gf who cant accept the fact tt even ex-es can be close frds. am i asking too much? all i hope is just the same treatment... But it seems that i'm losing a frd, a close buddy soon...

i've wanted to let go, months ago... telling him tt remaining as frds wld be best, not as bro n sis, cos no gal wld be able to take it... he din wan, smsed me saying "i'm very impt to him", "someone he'll tok to care n help till the end of time", "someone whom he really care for n treat as a sis"... reading these sms now really sound BS... jus cos of a gal, whom he hasn't met, a gal whom he call "dear", a gal whom he love... he stops calling his sis n cant go out wif her, cos his gf dun like it... well, y cant the gal be slightly mature n magnaminous? n i cant believe the fact tt my bro wld like this kinda gal...

mayb i shld be more understanding eh? give her time to accept n understand eh? haven i been helping? giving advices n stuff? haven i stop calling him for soooo long, only calling him to dicuss impt stuff... n to think i lump everything together... how productive is tt...

mayb its time to let go... being as norm frds is betta... as a sis, u're like obliged to help n whn u do, u get blamed in the end... saying tt u're giving extra pressure... who's giving pressure to who? did he ever stand in my position n think?! since its so stressful to handle a gf n a sis, u have to let go of one... and since i'm already willing to go, pls let go... if u ever got to read this... pls let go... only whn there's biz to discuss thn contact... But, he even hardly contacts me for biz discussion... am i a biz partner or wht?

where r the times tt we discussed biz, brainstorming like crazy over the phone? maybe its me n my condition, which u dunno... mayb u prefer love to bread... prefer toking to yr gf thn toking abt biz, brainstorming n stuff... mayb i'm really not impt to u anymore... if i'm not, pls let go...

where r the times u called me to try to spare time to go over to yr place on weekends cos u miss yr sis, n wan the family to have a meal together... now i'm not even allowed to step into yr place... mayb the gal loves u too much, so she dun wan me to step into yr home... but like wht u said, yr home is my home, cos yr mum treats me like a daughter... n now?

yah.. have to give some time.. how long? no one knows... but does tt means the day she cant understand n accept, we'll be forever distanced apart? if tt's the case, thn we're not siblings anymore, its seems more like just norm biz partners n frds... anyway, we're aso not blood siblings... I'm just disappointed in the way u handle stuff...

just hope u'll not forget yr dreams, yr immortality plan n yr promises to God n ah keong jiu jiu..

No idea wht description to put... Brain dead...

I'm dead tired... Not doing much aso can tire out so easily...

Will continue the China trip thingy most prob tmr... Just dun feel like writin... Mayb lazy, mayb no mood, mayb... I dunno...

The guys team played their first league game today at 9.30am in the morning. I only got up at 8.15am... took a cab down to Kallang... Just feel like slping n slpin n not waking up... Not waking up forever. Papa in Heaven, pls forigve me for harbouring these stupid tots, mayb I really have nothing betta to do... Mayb I really feel useless n its not my worth staying here. Mayb I shld be wif u...

Time to hit the sack n wake up at 7.30 for World Series Game 2... New York Yanks vs Florida Marlins. FLM lead series of best-of-7 1-0. Yanks must win the next one cos the 3rd, 4th n 5th games are plsyed in FL... Home advantage mah...

Just touched down...

Just touched down a couple of hours ago. China's great! Except for a few certain things. Will tok abt them tmr...

Too tired now, sleepy... haven got any good sleep in China. Y? More of it tmr...

Put on some weight. Y? more of it tmr...

Throat very dry n irritated. Skin on my legs are cracking. Fingernails n cuticles in a mess. OUTBREAK!!!! Y? More of it tmr...

Bought Baileys n Absolut Kurrant at DFS!!! Yummy!!! Not to mention dirt cheap too! Gahmen make us pay so much tax considering the shop at DFS need to make some profit too... Thy stop selling ciggies though... Haizzz...

K, zzz time... Will tok abt the trip tmr... zzz

Dear Absolut...

Its so tired tryin to keep busy. After I came home from My Teacher, Mr Kim (more on tt movie later), washed up, changed, I watched tv till 2.30am as usual till all my HK serials finish. Did a bit of packing and wanted tv for company again cos I was defragin my comp. No shows!!! I almost wanted to cry on the moment I was flippin away n I couldn't find any to watch. Then I settled on espn's sportscenter which keeps repeating. Wht's there to keep me occupied?

Guess I had no choice but to turn to my dear friend, Absolut. Let me introduce Absolut or Ab or more commonly know as Vodka. It's manufactured in Sweden, so says the bottle and it came back wif my dad just now at ard 10+. He bought the plain one... Absolut IS good!!! darling of the day, my hero... Jas' version of Screwdriver, Vodka + Grapefuit juice. Not like I wanted it but there's no 7-up or Ribena at home. Prefer 7-up or Ribena 100 times betta. Maybe whn I come back i shld go for Blackcurrent or Citrus... *sniggers* This is damn great, cos I'm starting to feel brain dead n sleeply!

B4 I really cannot take it n go to bed, just talk a bit on the movie. Great movie, beats any Hollywood crap thumbs down! May I add its very touching too... A teacher was posted to a rurual primary school. There he discovers what teaching is really like and goes thru happy n sad times with the entire enrollment of 5 kids. Unfortunately, the school gotta close down. The closing shots of the movies whn the credits rolled showed some B&W photos of a school. Somehow I think tt the school did exsited in Korea, characters might be fictional. Reminds me of the primary school in Pulau Ubin... Was forced to close down as there were not enuff students, just like wht's potrayed in the show. maybe will do some web search to find out...

Yankees won the series 3-1! As usual, my darling Derek Jeter made a very good play this morning... He caught the ball in the air and even b4 he landed, he made a one bounce throw to get the batter out at 1! Isn't tt so power?! *swoons* Shuai dai le... After the game, he was being interviewed. He's my fave MLB player for so long already, but its the 1st time I heard his voice! Heh! How I wish I can be like him, the best SS ard (n I'm only toking abt skills, looks toked abt seperately)... Jeter is the MLB version of Becks n Becks is the soccer version of Jeter. Good comparison eh? hehe... Benefits those reading who dunno who's Becks or Jeter... Interesting fact, both 1st names start wif "D"...

Cannot take it... gotta log in Neopets to get freebies n thn zzz... Absolut's gooooooooooodddddddddddddddd...

Espn the whole damned day

Becks played just now. Real Madrid won 2-1.

"You are connected to 132,147 people in your Personal Network, through 24 friends." Friendster's fun...

Screaming n shoutings continued today. What the hell am I doing? Cried to slp ystday nite, apparently, I'm not tired enuff? Wait till I get my hands on my Absolut Vodka, I'll make sure I'll slp the minute I hit my tatami.

The whole day, the tv's on espn. Showing games and sports that I've no interest, just need to keep myself occupied... Drank the remaining half a bottle of Vodka Mudshake, yummy! Maybe I haven been drinking for a long time, my brain's a bit dead. Good!

Something's wrong wif Dilys.. Will call her when I get back. Wonder how much are the ciggies over there and if I can bring back some for my dear frds.