Showing posts with label Softball. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Softball. Show all posts

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

The Difference A Few Weeks Make

25 weeks now and I really Thank God for blessing a smooth pregnancy thus far.
Although in the last few weeks I'm starting to feel what most preggers are complaining about. Although the tummy's growing and growing and I can no longer squeeze into small spaces. Although my back aches sometimes. Although my calves sometimes cramp up when I stretch my legs in the middle of the night. Although I keep waking up in the middle of the night to either pee or because my dream ends. Although most nights I have busy dreams of me walking around, running around, looking for something, etc, and I don't feel properly rested, waking up feeling as though I ran a marathon. Although I  never had a good straight 8 hours of sleep without waking up in the last few weeks. Although I can no longer walk at the speed I used to. Although I become breathless easily, like when I walk and talk at the same time. Although my abdomen feels like exploding when I take a deep breath sometimes. Although it is getting increasingly difficult to lather soap on my ankles when I'm bathing or reaching to wipe my bum bum after "baking cake". Although climbing stairs is getting more of an ordeal...
Despite all these, I really feel blessed. These are small little hiccups compared to other bigger matters that could endanger both mother and child that I've read online. So, I really Thank God.
 
Maybe the tummy's bigger and I'm on the receiving end of more gracious acts.
While on the way home from Jurong East on the MRT one evening, a young gentleman (that doesn't mean that I'm old) who was with his friend, stood up, walked across half a carriage and asked if I wanted to sit down. I thanked him but refused because it was only 1 stop. Such a sweet guy.
There's was once in the morning on the way to work when I boarded a bus with only standing space left. As a nice person as always, I moved in as much as I can till I stood at the exit. A gentleman, standing too on my left, spotted me and asked if I needed a seat. Knowing there will be people alighting in about 3 stops, I said its ok. But regardless of my answer, he tapped the fella sitting in the priority seat in front of me who was with his girlfriend. This fella looked up and give a huh face. I would too if I were him. hahahhaha... Anyways, this gentleman then pointed at me. That fella then looked at me and realised, and stood up to give up his seat. I thank both of them and took my seat. 2 stops later, the seat in front of me was vacated, so I moved and let this fella reunite with his girlfriend. It was one of the days where the day started off with good deeds and on a good note.

Time really flies and in about 4 months' time, I will get to hold my little one for my very first time. In the past, I often hear about the mother and child bond, and I'm feeling it myself.
Every night I would place my hands on my tummy to feel baby's movements a little. Quite often, baby would be very active when I'm about to sleep. I would then tell baby to stop playing and continue tomorrow and let's call it a night. Almost immediately, the movements will slow down a little and/or be smaller.
Then there was this one night. After I said good night to baby, I felt a squirm crawling towards my right hand and then I felt a bump on my right palm. Thereafter, movements were very slow and small. I don't know if it was coincidental but it felt amazing and magical. It was as though baby was saying good night to me!

And in other news, Singapore mens and womens teams both won bronze at this years SEA Games. The hubs accompanied me down to the Kallang Diamonds to catch the mens game between Malaysia and Singapore. I haven't been down to that area for more than a decade and it looks so different now! Feeling a little nostalgia about the times and days back then...

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

A Sincere Appeal For Help...

I know I don't have much readership, but I kindly appeal to everyone out there to help spread the word around. To me, this is an important issue and I hope someone would join me and do a small part to help...

During the Beijing Olympics 2008 closing ceremony, one of the cameras managed to take a shot of a few people who wrote "SOFTBALL 2016" on their arms. It was a very fast shot and was on air for only a few seconds and I wondered if anyone caught that. It was a very touching gesture taken by these people and I do not know if they were athletes or people from the audience in the Bird Nest stadium. Thank You so so much...

Although I no longer play the game, but I still love the game very much as I used to play in while in school. Please do bring softball back into Olympics and onto the international stage, so the sport would not die out.

Part of the reason that softball was excluded was that there is a misconception that it is an "American" game and there isn't worldwide participation of the game. Now now, who said only Americans play the game? Japan won the gold medal for the Olympics this year and Australians went home with a bronze.

During the recent SEA Games held last year in Thailand, our girls won the historic silver while our guys (my coach/poly senior, another poly senior and a secondary school senior were in the team) got the bronze. The win was sweet because for years we have not gotten any medals from huge events like this!

You can do your part by leaving your name on the following websites. Whether it would work? I really do not know, but I'm not giving up that glitter of hope.
1) http://www.softballfever.com/olympicsoftballpetition.html (My signature is #11427)
2) http://www.savesoftball.com/ (My signature is #2551)

p/s: to my ex-teammates, seniors and juniors, it's time we really can do much more for the sport... Please spread the message round to all other players in out community. Thanks!

Sunday, September 26, 2004

Physically drained...

So "happening" last 2 weeks that I feel physically drained out...

18th: Last IVP match of the season. After dinner met some frds, played pool. After pool, sit down, tok cock... Reached home at 4am...

19th: Woke up at 7.30am to be in time in Kallang for J-league. Saw history making when Teck Whye Alumini softball team won Singapore National softball team. Shiok! Left Kallang ard 4pm. whn i reached home, slacked, tired out, slept early.

20th to 23rd: Work, stress out, using too much brain juice. After work was driving lessons or running errands. Reaching home on the avg of 8pm everyday, tired out...

24th: After work, went up to JB wif my colleagues for seafood and cheesecake!!! at only 4.90RM per slice, it was wonderful... If only i could buy every single slice back to SG. Reached home at 9.40pm. Rushed to bath, change and take my mahjong set. Played mahjong till 4+am. Went for supper/breakfast. By the time i slept, it was 6am already.

25th: Woke up by my dad at 9am. But fell back to sleep. Every few mins, he would come to try to wake me up again. For the next 45 mins, it was just a few mins eye shut, driftin to sleep, only to wake up again. finally got my butt up, bathe, changed and went out for brunch wif my family. After that, we went suntec carrfour to buy groceries and some car accessories. Our car, SFM4850Y is officially a week's old! Reached home ard 230pm, set up everything we have bought in the car. Slacked at home from 3-4pm. Left the house again to mit the gals. Window shopped for a while and we went to sakae for dinner. Left at 8pm, took a cab n rushed home. Put down some stuff, took some stuff, mit some friends from wholivesnearyou.com for a mooncake thingy... chit chat, supper, tok cock, reached home at 4+am. Slept at 5am...

26th (today): woke up at 1pm. ate lunch, now headache is kicking in... damn...

Saturday, August 07, 2004

Since 25th Jul...

How should i start this entry... let's date back to 2 sundays ago, 25th Jul...

F.I.R was in town and had a gig at Hard Rock Cafe. It was the first time I'm seeing them n hearin them live. They are fantastic! fabulous! superb! They are like so perfect. One pretty n sweet, the other, cool, the other, drop dead good looking, my ideal guy type...
F=Faye: Pretty n sweet, with a great voice to boot. She has the ability to go solo anytime. She's like A*Mei, sounded betta live rather then cd (although both have diff singing styles) and has great stage presence. I've always tot there are 2 diff type of singers, the performer/ entertainer (read: "idol" type eg, Aaron Kwok in the past when he just started out) and the singer (read: only sing, do nothin else, eg Qi Yu, Cai Qin). Reason I like A*Mei is that she fall into both catergory, so does Faye. When she sang a verse of A*Mei's Lan Tian, she sang it sooo beautifully in her own way.
I=Ian: Lao Shi!!! The brains behind this band. Composer, producer, keyboardist. A*Mei's Lan Tian was done by him too. (tt's y Faye sang it at the gig) Damn cool! Was drooling at his coolness, given his age of 30+. haha... Gotta thank him for bringing them together, without him, there wouldn't be F.I.R.
R=Real aka Ah Qing. This is the drop dead good looker. Stupid photos I've seen of him in the press so far make him look fat n ugly. Mayb cos he has a kinda wide face cos of his jawline. when he smiles, he's cute. When he does not smile, he looks cool n suave. my ideal guy type lah, the kinda guy whose type of look can vary but still good looking lah... He's very very obliging. Call him, he turns n smiles, INTO your cam!!! Damn talented too. If he goes solo, he'll be hot property. he can sing! so wht if he's just a guitarist. He has the voice that really melts you... ahhhhh...
After the gig, it was the autograph session at West Mall. IDIOT warner staff, after I finish toking to lao shi n faye, can tok to ah qing already!!! but, this idiot, ask me how many cd sleeves i brought up thn hurry me off the stage!!! i haven even shook ah qing's hand nor tok to him!!! argh... tt's one disappointing part... another was, i have so many friends in NTU, but none could get tics for the gig at NTU... Q was too long and most had to rush for lessons, some din even bother to reply me!!! grr...

Last sunday, 1st, went for a malay wedding lunch buffet. it was Hamari's son's wedding. supposed to go down to SAJC to mit PJ for a church event, but my head was killing me, tearing me apart. Slept, from 3+, waking up several times for dunno wht reason. In my "blurness", i think i replied sms, drank water n pee-ed... hmm... waking up in the morning 6.30 and took a cab to work the next day...

Tuesday, went down to NP for training. Got schedules for IVP, so i can book my driving lessons accordingly. After training, i went home, din go eat, zzz... woke up to watch man u play psv. after tt, wnt to work as usual. after work, wnt to pick up my lenses, went home change shoe cos heel came off, a bit risky to wear them walking ard in town. wnt to mit him (him lah...) for SFS core screening of Brotherhood.

Review of Brotherhood: I liked it, but he din. was crying like hell. the plot was very pacy, thus whn the characters "grew" it seemed very fast n choppy. it also seemed like the director was trying to squeeze Band of Brothers into a 2 and a half hours movie. the cinematography was also very similar to BOB. but overall, its a good movie. teaches us one important thing, if u treasure the person close to you, nvr flare up or quarrel wif him/her. if there are misunderstandings, tok it out n clear it. cos u'll nvr know whether u'll c him/her again the nxt day, that's whn u'll regret...

Went for my first practical driving lesson today. need to work on my footwork n steering. i have bad road sense... :-(

I've been thinking a lot after the movie, dunno excately what, but it just links from one thing to another. in the end, i "settled" on 2 quotes that i've seen n heard...
"The furthest distance is that when I'm beside you, you don't even know it."
"Friends, I'd rather be. Lovers, I'd rather not. Cos lovers last for a while, while friends last forever."
With this, i'm tellin myself to be more hard hearted in love cos "friends" will definately last longer then "lovers"...

Wednesday, October 29, 2003

Running on XP now...

Been bz backing up data n upgrading my comp. Running on XP now!!! Cleared all those stupid spyware n viruses... Its like having a brand new comp... So shiok...

Besides this, helping my coach aso in his FJSS softball carnival. Not too bad, keepin myself bz till the end of this month. Will start my driving lessons next month...

I just realised some things... Firstly, I tire easily.. very easily.. I slept at 2am+ ystday n only woke up at 4pm+ today, n now i'm already yawning away... Whn i opened my eyes at ard 10am, my eyes just closed back, just too tired to get up.

Secondly, I'm the most vulnerable at nite. Maybe in the mornings whn i just wake up, my brain's dead, not working, just a blank mind, just stoned n half awake... At nite, whn i'm most active, cos i'm a nite owl, if i dun do anything, i'll feel at a loss, just feel like crying... mayb goin for driving lessons a bit dangerous ah?

Thirdly, i'm very thirsty... Just feel like drinking n drinkin...

Fourthly, I've no appetite although i'm hungry... I can only take a few bites n thn after some time, the hungry pangs kick in again. I force myself to eat whn i'm outside cos there isnt any "biteable" small sized treats with me.

Last but not least, I'm putting on a mask in front of everyone. I may be toking, chatting happily whn i'm wif anyone, but once i'm alone, the sian-ness n down-ness kicks in, n if i dun keep myself bz, i'll feel loss n start to cry... so whnever i'm on the bus, i'll watch tvmobile, if not play mahjong on my hp... i need pple to tok to n keep me company. Asking abt the condition is ok, but pls dun probe too much if i dun feel like toking abt it...

Thanks to everyone who have shown me care n concern all this while. Luv ya all! God will bless good pple lile all of u....

Btw, Yanks lost the World Series title to Marlins. yes, u can repeat again, who the hell are the Marlins...

Friday, September 26, 2003

The only alternative is the next alternative...

IVP 2003's officially over. Gals got 3rd, guys got nothing. It's like "as per normal", guys get nothing every year and this year's team in comparision is kinda strong to yesteryears. Haizzz... Next year will be a betta year, i really hope.

i was thinging abt something just now. Shld a person in life have very good frds or very close buddies.

Frds are like always there for u, u can tell them everything wifout worrying.

Buddies are aso always there for u, but u can't tell them everything cos u dun wan them to worry for u and most of the time you're taken for granted cos there's no word of thanks or sorry. The relationship between this group is funny. Normally, u'll listen to the advice of pple who are your "buddies", but because these real buddies are really too close, so some how or rather, u'll just ignore wht thy say even if it makes sense. Rebellious nature? Mayb. Thanks to Adma n Eve who passed us this rebellious nature? Excuses... can choose not to but well as guys always say this excuse "wait till i find the rite one lah, i die for her aso can"... well well...

Its the end of Sept. Shld be ready to pack soon. Who knows, die in a plane crash and wht i said n who i adviced on will aso not regret not listening. Mayb all this while I'm toking nothing but just rubbish pple dun seem to care whn i care. or issit back to the rebellious nature excuse again? Hmm, mayb the SQ fight shld change to China Airlines thn really plane crash dunno if there're regrets. Most prob not. heartless pple? Mayb. Learnt something after 22 years of life... Dun give more thn u receive. No one will bother anyway.

You know in those drama serials set in the olden times, pple DO listen to advices n regretted not listening to them after someone-close's death. Doubt it happens in real life now. After all they're just stories n characters in reel life.

Wnt over to take a look at the irc window just a sec ago after finishing the above para. q n bugger playing the op-deop game again, tis time round, on me... Strict ops thingy again.

Whn you're emotionally down, weird ideas just come to your mind. even watching happytreefriends dun cheer u up, nothing does. you'll only cheer up whn u blast away at the person(s) responsible for this and who in the rite mind will let u blast away like tt. I dun. The only way, cry n cry n cry away, at least for me... Tt's my way of venting out my fustrations, blah blah...

Mayb like wht another of my frd said, "lower self expectations esp if those expectations need actions from others". Well, its ok if thy dun listen, I'll just stop toking. No point in wasting my breath... But mayb because i care, tt's y i tok. only way to stop caring is to turn heartless or maybe disappear from this world... cancerians rule by their emotions, so heartless is out. the only alternative is the next alternative...

Thursday, September 18, 2003

Neopets. Sis. Champs league. IVP.

Reading blogs and writing them seem to be the things I'll do whn I can't get to zzz and I've nothing to do and maybe a few complains...

Neopets is filled wif kids, kids and more kids. I'm having fun having a home and a shop, although its not happening in real life yet. And these KIDS, oh boy, u know wht thy do?

1) After u buy up all their nonsense loss-making items in their shop, thy neomail u asking u to be their neofriend.

2) Thy dun mind making NO profit or any loss by selling their items lower n lower wif every search wif the shop wizard. Let's say u price yours at 77, they'll price it at 76 n then another will price it at 75 n thn another at 74. Adoi, can't thy just buy up the lower one n sell it slightly higher? Even if thy have no more money left to buy up, just price it as 77 (or as the lowest price given in the search wizard). 1np is aso money mah. KIDS...

Toking abt kids, the terror kid in my house is getting freaking irritating as the day passes. All I have to do is to ask her to lower the tv vol, and her voice goes louder thn the tv is already. N as my parents hate noise in the house, thy'll go "let her be". She's as spoilt as a frigging brat (worse thn anyone can imagine) compared to those spoilt frigging brats acted out in tv, even spoiler. Mayb she shld be the one acting in those spoilt bratty roles. I really need to move out, can't take these nonsense anymore... Anyone can put me up for free rental?

Opening match for Champs League... Man U won 5-0, Real won 4-2. My Becks din scored, but my Solks did. Heh... N ARSEnal LOST... hahahahahhahaha... Cannot gloat ah, its bad to gloat at pple's loss. hhahahahaha...

Did my nails ystday n today. Not too bad... Hehe... Painted the base ystday, added the 2nd colour, shimmers n flowers (gem stones type) today. Too bad no where to upload...

IVP's on again... NP lost to SP in the opening match, both gals n guys team. Haizzz... 1 down, 2 more matches to go. Hope we can win NTU, thy're not tt good either, matchable... As for NUS, its only hoping n hoping, thy have pitchers n thy're batting's aggressive, wishing n hoping...

Y would pple lose directions in life even whn thy actually know wht thy want. Issit cos thy're just plain lazy to excecute it? Haiz...

No other nonsense, back to neopets to deal wif those kiddys...

Friday, May 16, 2003

For the past 30+ days....

Freaking long since I've updated this thing. No time, can't be bothered to, nothing to blog about, too busy, forget to blog, all sorta reasons.

Played pool on n off throughout this long period of not blogging. Think I've improved slightly. Just that my posture n basics still sucks.

Went to Melaka on the 2nd n 3rd of May for an upgrading training program. Damn shiok! The feeling of everyone coming together for th same goal, striving and encouraging each other to move on. The hotel I was staying in had a shopping mall opposite it. In the shopping mall, there was Dunkin Doughtnuts n Baskin Robins Ice Cream!!! So happy. Bought half a dozen of doughtnuts and 2 pints of ice cream back to SG. It's been so many years since I last tasted these "childhood" tastes. Reliving my childhood days when eating those doughtnuts n ice cream. Haiz, if only there are these outlets in SG now... Scrimping on my ice cream now... Taking only a spoonful every other day...

Since the 12th, we had a softball camp in Ngee Ann. Went back to train with the team. Did 200 duct-jumps and push-ups, sprinted, ran, did 100 sit-squats... Quite a bit of physical for someone who haven been gog through all these for so many years. And after these years of playing softball, I've been gog through the basics which (unfortunately) I haven been taught. Its a really back to zero experience for me since last year. Now, I'm slowly picking up. Hehe... And at last, I can judge fly balls!!! Hehe... Wasn't been able to estimate n judge, now I can... Hehe... So happy... But my throwing's a bit weird, have to practice on tt...

Time to zzz...

Tuesday, March 25, 2003

War, carnival, zzz...

So, war has started. I'm anti-Saddam but not pro-war. Have to disarm this mad fella asap. God knows whn he's gonna stage a bio or chem warfare on the rest of the world.

There was a SRC carnival for softball for the past 2 weekends. The matches were kinda ok, some exciting, some not. As usual, the 'C' division girls games were won on who had the least errors and free bases.

Haven't slept well these few days as had to reach Padang early. Woke up at 9am today, headache, went back to zzz. Woke up at 3pm, still headache plus giddiness... Kinda okie now... Arm aching too, cos din do proper streching before throw/catch.

Meeting Klooz n Pam most prob in the evening later. Mum say go facial wif her in the morning... Gotta sleep soon, but CNA gonna start Fox news broadcast...

Yeah!!! MLB's returning to ESPN starting on Wed!!! Hehe!!! At last! Hope they telecast more Yankees games so I can get to c Derek Jeter... Hehe...

Go to hell wif war...

Go to hell, Saddam!!

Wednesday, October 02, 2002

IVP 2002 Game 2 & 3... Location Asst job...

So damn blardi tired n tied up with my job that I din update for such a long time.

The gals team lost the 2nd match to NUS but won SP in the 3rd. So, we've got 2nd tis year!!! Yay!!!

I was doing location asst for Two Oceans since the 6th till 29th. Had to recce places according to the script for a ministry project of 5 commercials. The shooting dates were 26th till the 29th. Slept almost the whole day ystday! Was so damn tired. Imagine sleeping at an average of 2am n waking up at 5am. Reached home after the last day of shoot, slept at about 1am all the way till 5+pm the next day... Shiok! Hehe...

Went back to office to settle the claims today. My producer asked if I'm interested to work. Of course! Well, I've to get some capital for my business after all. Told him I'd like to try the PA post. At least it pays better overall. 80 dollars a day for a PA job compared to 700 for the whole period contracted as location asst. After that, I went over to Chris' place to discuss our business and continued our Cash Flow game. I got outta of the rat race by 3.5 hrs and completed the game by buying my dream n his dream by 4 hrs. Hehe... Hope I can do it faster the next time round.

Now, I'm only waiting for 6 commercials to air. Hehe... Cos I'm considered doing location for another project of 1 commercial too. Cos tis script requires me to look for a house which I was doin for the project of 5 commercials. The agency (in charge of both projects) found one of the houses I recced suitable for the 1-commercial project so they used it.

After slacking out for 2 days, tmr I'll have to pack my room and embark on Robert's books again! My room's in a complete mess now... Haiz..

Sunday, September 08, 2002

IVP 2002 Game 1

Q came into #mcss yesterday morning.. around 2am... So happy that the application went thru.

We had the first game today for this season's IVP. Against NTU. Gals won, guys lost. Good game put up by the gals. We batted hard, made good hits, ran aggressive-ly n scored many runs in the 3rd inning. In the bottom 4th, NTU managed to catch up, but we still managed to hold them down and won by 2 runs. The guys were good during the top 1st inning, confident, running aggressive-ly...But as more runs came in during the bottom 1st, they started to make errors... In the end, we lost 24-10...

Enuice said this as she was leaving irc today : failure is part and parcel of life...it is through failure that we learn and strive for the better. come on ppl...never give up... softball is a team game. work together as a team and alwz encourage each other. i believe all of you can do it if u believe and have faith in yourself and the team.... Well said!!! Power!!!

After the game, we wnt back school, bathed, thn headed to al-ameen for dinner. I quickly ate n thn went to my grandma's (dad's side) birthday dinner... Thn went back to bukit timah to join the team for pool.

Sleeply now, but like unwilling to zzz.. hehe... Mayb cos thr are still pple online, so can chat a bit... hehe...

Tuesday, September 03, 2002

Softball Camp June Sem 2002 n bday celebration...

Felt that I haven wrote for quite some time... So hands itchy to write something...

Had registered #mcss on galaxynet. Hope the application goes thru successfully.

The softball camp was on last Fri till Sun, but I left on Sat nite. Had training on Fri evening n stayed for a nite. Couldn't get to sleep, so me, Enuice, Ziwei, MC, Hong, Ah Gu, Pui Suan, Simon n Tart (I thk tt's all) gathered for Round One of Ghost Stories. We toked abt happenings in NP... At abt 3, we decided to get to zzz, so we stopped n went to toilet. Thn Tart saw someone on the track, turned out to be human after all... We went back to the room. Me, Ziwei, Hong, MC n Pui Suan gathered for Round Two... Army happenings this time round. At almost 5, we stopped to get some sleep. N tt was when we had a symphony orchestra (read: loud snoring) in NP. Eunice had woken up too, so had some other gals. As for me, I really cannot get to zzz already. Mayb I had fallen asleep, but not deep sleep... At abt 6.20, Tart, Sebas, Steward n Wee Kiang woke up. After a small discussion with them, we found out tt Pui Suan was the one snoring all nite long. Those 4 guys went to wash up, but as soon as they came back, it started to rain heavily. As scheduled, we were to have a morning jog n thn some light training.. But we cancelled n it was rest n relax time. Some went to the library to watch baseball tapes n movies, the rest of us played daidee, till Gopi came n stopped us, so we played "sha, fan sha" n "007"... Had lots of laughs.. Haha... All the way till 3.30, we started to make our way to the clubhse to get equipment to start training... Trained, makan dinner, got the gals to gather. Me, Ah Gu, Jan, Qi n Eunice begin to speak to the gals... Telling them abt stuff thy shld kn, like bat swinging, relaying, etc... Left abt 10+... Reached home, called Chris abt Sun, his mum's bday, celebrated 2 days late... Washed up at abt 11+, zzz at 12...

Mayb I was damn tired. My alarm clock started ringing at 8, but only managed to wake up at 10. Bought the book n the cake, reached his place ard 12+. His dad said I had lost weight... Hehe.. Went up to his room to take a nap aft his dad n him told me to cos I was still damn tired, was lying face down to the table to rest and was waiting for Louis, Hao n Seng to come so we can tok abt our "team". But thy came late, ard 5+, tt was when I just woke up... Started to prepare the things for the bbq at tt point of time. Cut cake, eat, toked till abt 11+ thn I took a cab home...

Now aso still damn tired.. But I wana watch the Liverpool match later n c how thy lose... Hehe... I shall go start reading Real Estate Riches, another book from the Rich Dad series...

Saturday, December 22, 2001

Orion

A song was playing in my head. It goes "Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand, Now and forever, I'll your man..." Hmm... Tis is just one of the many songs that entered into my life years ago... Another one that was playing in Cash's car ystday "I'll never get over you, getting over me". This song had let me thking. I knew I was thking abt some stuff but jus not too sure wht I was thking abt. A frd gave me an advice, in short : dun rush... True true, jus so true...

Was wif the softball pple today. Ate dinner at Swensen's. Was raining maos n gous after we finished our dinner, so, Qi n I wnt to get a cab at the taxi stand. Blardi long queue so we called a cab. Cab came n we went home. The driver dropped Qi off first. I was alone in the spacious cab. The cab was kinda cold and vapour collected on the windows. Everything looked blurred. Raindrops fell onto the windows, creating streaks of 'clearness'. If only I had a camera... Wouldn't it be beautiful to capture tis sight?

Saw the Orion ystday. It was so beautiful, shining in the clear sky above... Tis is the 2nd time which I was able to see the formation. The 1st time sucks. It was during the recent softball camp and it was kinda cloudy...

Sianzzz... I aso dunno wht I'm toking abt. Ntg links n connects in tis entry... Mayb mind not thking straight... Back to trivia...

By the way, I was near his neighbourhood, or rather, at his neighbourhood ystday... Was thking of him ystday, but now, at tis moment, nope... While gog home, we drove past his blk... Memories flooded me? Mayb yes, mayb no. I dun have a clear ans myself...

Wednesday, October 10, 2001

England qualifies! While Cranberries sing Warchild...

Hmm, some sort of a brief update...

Sat: England has qualified for World CUP!!! The last match for the group phrase is against Greece. England is tied in points with arch-rival Germany, leading only on goal difference. To qualify, they must at least match the results Germany will get against Finland. Was watching the 2 matches at the same time cos they were on different channels after I got home. England was trailing by a goal at half time. Sheringham equalises for England with a Becks corner. Germany and Finland still 0-0. Gd, England is thru for the time being. Greece scores. England trails 2-1. Germany n Finland 0-0. Wondering why Finland don't score. Matches go into injury time. Full time whistle goes for Germany n Finland, 0-0. Shit, England must die die euqalise!!! 92nd min, Backs take a free kick outside the penalty area. GOAL!!! Becks scores n brings England into the World Cup!!! Hehe... Msg Amok to tell him the score... Phonecalls time to settle Sun's miting time... So, after the match, it was work time again... All the way till 5am. Amok called. Tok for a little while, thn went to zzz...

Sun: Miting Hong, Janice, Zhou n Chris for lunch at Marche at 11.30. Went to Kallang aft tt. Met Juli thr. Aft watching Hunters (Mingchen's n Jeffery's) play the Jap team, we stayed a little while to c Red Sox (Mr. Toh n Sebas) play Braves. Went LeisurePark, the guys play CS, while I watched then we played pool. Chee and Clara were watching Miss Saigon at the nearby Kallang Theatre, so we met up wif them too. After the pool session, they went to Orchard for dinner while I went home. Work time as usual... till 5+ again.

Mon: Went to sch for project again... Skipped training. Was working on the audio tracks at home. (I illegally copied SoundForge's setup file home, again...) Really had no choice cos can't stay overnite in sch. Lots of problems cos thr r 2 closed-circuit cams pointing towards our lab. So if kana find out, die liao. Slept at 6+, 7+am cos was watching MLB, Cardinals against Astros... McGuire (Cardinals) wasn't playing, lost to Astros. Dunno whts the score cos i fell asleep.

Tues: Woke up at 8.45am. Confirm late for class, class starts at 9am. Went to sch, forgot to bring my ZIP disk, went home to take. Really damn tired. So, I 'officailly' started class at 10am. Dunno wht the *tu* happen to my main menu. Render a bloody f***ing 9 times, still cannot. Tmr have to go back to sch to try to render again. Can't render at home cos it'll end up as a freakin 4+GB .avi file and thr's no way I can bring it to sch. Like wht I tell some of my classmates most of the time, we spent most of our time rendering and converting files frm one format to another. If only the computers in sch are much faster! Sigh...

By the way, I din mention that US have stared bombing Afghanistan rite? Started on Mon... War time... By the way, thr are some stupid pro-muslim active groups out thr staging protests. Can't they use their freaking brains?! Its a war targeting not at Muslims nor at Afghanistan (a Muslim country), its a war on OSAMA and his followers. If its a war targeting at Muslims or Afghanistan, why would the US wana spend money giving food aid to the

Afghan civilians?!?! Sigh... Saw a headline today. It read: Osama divides the world. True, cos governments around the world have to choose to stand behind justice or terror...

First someone dun use brain, insist on a war. Now others dun use brain, holding protests. Sigh... What is the world coming to?

Friday, October 05, 2001

Singing 'Life' by Des'ree while typing tis...

So, its another ‘early’ entry, but I dun care cos my mood’s kinda nice for once in like almost a month. I managed to make all the stupid and ‘fan si ren’ changes to my Photoshop and have embarked on my After Effects! Yeh! So, the main animation and the bridges are done (hopefully no re-doing). All tt’s left are the multi-angle menus, a total of 8. Can’t do them at home (even I’ve illegally copied the whole After Effects folder from sch. Hehe…) cos the .avi files are in sch. Hopefully I can finish them tmr. Haha…

Thk Amok jus woke up. Hehe… Army has called upon him, will only hear frm him in like 3 wks time…

If I can finish my stuff tmr, hopefully I’ll just pass by sch on Sat morning to chk on the rendering. Then hopefully nothing crops up cos I wana join the gals at Mr. Toh’s place for dinner on Sat then join Hong and the rest on Sun. Heard frm him that the plan on Sun is to go Marche for lunch thn we’ll head over to Katong for pool/ billard/ CS session. He’s saying that its very cheap thr. I really need to distress and enjoy my weekend sia… For the past God knows how many weeks, my weekends have been occupied by softball, washing soiled clothes, ironing and PHOTOSHOP!!! Sigh, I really nd a life!!!

Was shortlisting songs to use for my DVD jus now. Suddenly tot of the song ‘Circle of Friends’ by Point of Grace. It’s a Christian song. So I went to look for the CD, which was in my room somewhr. Found Hillsongs CDs too. Opened the CD sleeve, read through the lyrics, tears dropped. Tried to hold back but I really can’t. Really have to thank God’s grace! For so damn long that I’ve backslide, I felt comfort, warmth and God’s love once again. With some much calling and I still refuse to bulge! What kind of child am I? I guess I really have to work something out some how…

Thursday, October 04, 2001

Brain-dead, Stoned, Shagged Out...

Can't think. Dunno how I managed to type anythg here in the first place.

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Went to sch on Mon to do project. Joined the team for dinner and pool. Went home to do some more. Slept damn late.

Tues class at 9am. In sch do whole day also not enough. Found a lot of mistakes. Have to re-do a lot of stuff. Qi called me, asked if I wanted to go shopping. Had to reject her cos I have to finish up stuff which I did in 2 mths within 2 days! At nite, at home, photoshop time again. Did all the way up till Wed ard 5+.

Went to zzz, woke up at 1+pm but just couldn't get up. Handphone just beside me so was chking it for a while. Replied some msg while lying down, fell asleep with the phone in my hand. Woke up again, wondering how on earth I fell back asleep. Replied some msgs again, can't pluck up the energy to get up, lay there for a while. A while = falling asleep again. Woke up to a grand time of 5+pm. Dunno why I can't get up, mayb it's cos I haven't been getting much zzz these days... Gotta abort plans of gog to sch already. Even for training! Went to bath, eat 'breakfast' and put myself down in front of the comp. Opened photoshop, work time.

So, I've been working for ard 8-9+ hrs, minusing the time i took breaks, walking ard, playing trivia, chking mails. Shortlisted songs to use too. Will work on Aft Effects later after my nap. And i stress, NAP! Target wake up time, 1pm. No laying down anymore!

Been too occupied to notice stuff ard me. Thk i'll nd to get a life. Was reading a frd's diary and realised that I've only talked abt me and my projects recently, that I've left out worthy stuff to write abt. But no worries, I'll remember the pig bombing, Mingchen and his MRT handle, potong in Eng Kok's bag aka Kevin the 'bao to kia'...

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Time for nap... Oh yes, Amok's enlisting in abt 1.5 hrs time. Wish him good luck! Promised to catch movies with him in 3 wks time...

Monday, October 01, 2001

Mud War!!!

There’s no one at home when I came back on Fri. I had just came back from grocery shopping at Jelita’s Cold Storage after class. The house was cold, dark and quiet when I stepped in, guess that my ‘rents and my sis are out for dinner. A thought struck me that this might be what would happen when I’m in Australia. Kinda had that lonely and helpless feeling which doesn’t seem to help at this moment. At this stage, when I’m feeling down, kinda like the depression stage of life. Really dunno why, but tears just swelled up in my eyes and I broke down once again… This time, in my living room, all alone…

Marcia, Weiling and Kaixin all came to watch us on Sat. Both teams lost the match, so I guess positions of the teams are quite clearly stated. After the match was over, we had mud war. But we were ‘interrupted’ with the prize presentation. So, after the presentation, part 2 of mud war continued. There was a little peek-a-boo session cos someone’s slacks came kinda loose. Wun mention names nor jersey no. cos dun wana embarrass him. But most of us kn who he is anyway, that includes those who stay a little while longer after the prize presentation and caught us playing mud… Hehe… Most of us end up dripping wet with mud water, including me. I kana ice water too. Beri beri cold. Cos my clothes were wet, I was feeling kinda cold on the bus too. Heng the bus’s air-con not tt power after all and I was sort of walking ard a bit, if not sure buay tahan one… After the bus got us back to NP, we put back the equipment and showered. Went to Marina South and had steamboat. Played pool after that. Shared cab with Janice, Bo Shen and Chris. Reach home 2+, 3.

Woke u ard 3 just now. Guess I was really tired. Washed the muddy clothes and packed up my stuff a bit. After dinner (or was it late lunch?), I did some Photoshop stuff for the DVD project. Seems like never-ending. Already prepared to stay overnite in sch tmr if I can’t finish. Hope thr are others staying too. I wouldn’t wanna end up alone in Blk 52, kinda scary.

Monday, September 24, 2001

Suay... Damn suay...

Damn suay these few days…

My body finally gave way and protested to how I'm living my life. Was down with fever when I got home on Fri. By the way, I was already coughing… Took some Biogesic, wrapped myself up real tight (so I could use the perspiring method to get well and feel better) and went to sleep.

Sat, lagi best. Match only started for 15 mins and rain just pelted down. So damn bloody heavy yet such a shallow shelter. When the wind blew in, only those on the last bench were safe. So, the match will be postponed till nxt Sat. Went for dinner at KAP. The rest went to karaoke while I decided to head home. Dun like to sing when I’m sick, especially when I’m having a sore throat, flu or cough or any illness to do with my nasal and breathing system. Was feverish again when I went home. Seems that the flu virus is starting to attack. Took Biogesic, applied Vicks, slept till almost 3pm today.

Woke up today to non-feverish me, but was coughing, sniffing (can’t blow my nose cos there isn’t much to clear) and sneezing the whole day. No point gog down to Kallang since I woke up at this hour. Packed some stuff, washed some stuff, ironed some clothes and finished up another of my stills (which had been left hanging for some time) for my DVD project.

Oh yah, did I mention some idiot stole my wallet? I know it’s partly my fault for leaving it around, but I really dun mind if you would wanna take all my money and chap-ba-lang membership cards but just leave my I.C and ATM card lah… Take also no use, unless u wanna use my I.C to borrow money from loansharks. My wallet is already precious enough for you to take cos it’s a JPG, extinct design… By the way, if that idiot is a girl, I hope she kana _ _ _ _ - _ _ _ _ for her retribution. If that idiot is a guy, I hope he kana some kinda accident and no more _ _ _ _ _ _ ‘_ - _ _ _ !!!

Argh!!! Frustrations, PMS and stress… All not very helpful. Kinda short-tempered, moody, cranky nowadays… Argh…

Thursday, September 20, 2001

Memories of...

Shld I or shld I not trust him. I really dunno. I’m too busy and stressed now to thk abt such stuff. Shld I, shld I not? “Good horse dun eat the grass it has turned back on”. K, not for the moment…

Thk Mingchen’s b-day celebration’s not over yet. B-day song over the phone on Mon, pool on Tues, b-day cake today. Thk thr’ll be mud war tmr. Cos it rained heavily today and the field, I guess is bloody flooded. Too bad I wun be joining in, if not it’ll be “jap roti wif peanut butter and strawberry jam”. The cramp almost killed me today. Buay tahan… Maybe that’s y I seem moody, grouchy, grumpy, touchy, blah blah blah today. Sorry guys… Gomene…

Been irc-ing with the team everynite since Mon. We have since developed a practice of taking over pple’s nicks. Hehe… Jiamin, Qi, Coach (Ken Toh) and me had been on irc without being online. Dunno who are the other victims… Juliana came into our chatroom. Din chat much wif her or the rest cos was playing a game at #cobratrivia.

Man Utd won 1-0 for the first Champions League game of the season courtesy of David Backham. Heng man, at least picked up 3 points. Liverpool drew with Borussia Dortmund. Why din my Michael Owen score?

Will be going down to Michael’s shop, opp Haig Girls’, tmr with Chee. She’ll be getting a glove while I need to get boots or maybe cleats will sound a better choice. Hehe… But I wun be an idiot to get metal cleats and hurt myself. Guess will look look see see tmr.

Heard that Fri the world will be on high alert, standby. Guess that someone wants to act big bro afterall. I understand that this is an irritating matter, hard to swallow indeed. But taking innocent lives for revenge? I thk that’s a big NO NO. Sigh… End of world is nearing… What happened to the so-called World Peace? Had never seen war and will never want to taste it. The last 2 were bad enuff. “Why, tell me why…” Bakayarou!!! Seshinbyo!!!

Hope the world dun end so soon, pls… I have yet to tok to him. Really miss him man. Why does Superpool at Bukit Timah look like Pavillion at Tampines? Blue tables, low lighting, blue chalk… All remind me of him and his mannerisms while playing pool. He, forehead creasing aft missing an easy shot. He, looking at me, toking to me while waiting for his turn to cue, wondering and worrying if I’ll be bored (cos I din kn how to play only till recently). He, giving me a peck right before he steps up to the table. He, chalking his cue. He, rolling his cue on the table to get a straight one. He, he, he, bringing tears to my eyes once again. Thk I’m not trying hard enuff aftall. Really feel like smashing my head into the wall, so I dun have to thk of him…

Tuesday, September 18, 2001

Blabbering Time

Hmm, today got quite a lot to blabber on… One thing at a time…

1) Congrats to Hong… Got a home run on Saturday against NUS courtesy of their shortstop having an error. Hehe… Kinda morale booster, only if it was done earlier in the game, thn results might be different. The team kept suan-ing him that he wouldn’t be able to zzz that nite. Anyway, the gals will be fighting for the 2nd or 3rd with Singapore Poly (SP) this coming Saturday. Somehow feels a bit funny to play wif them cos somehow or rather, the players know each other.

2) I feel that I’m f***ing being misunderstood. Someone told me that she heard that I’ve got feelings for a very gd/ close frd of mine. This grievance must be addressed! The following points are definite valid reasons why I’ll NERVER EVER fall for him. (A) I’m thking of my ex still. (B) He has ‘target’ liao. (C) Although we are close, I DON’T feel anything for him cos he’s NOT my type of guy. (D) Just CANNOT make it lor. Sigh, being close frds also kana say… Luckily I’m not close wif all the guys, if not sure gt pple say I FLIRTING one… Hehe…

3) Some 2 cents worth: Someone out there thk he’s BIG BRO. Wanna wipe out terrorism in abt 60 countries. Can’t he just leave it to UN? Wah piang… I kn yr country kana attack liao, but declaring war is definitely not a very clever idea lor. Sigh… (Suddenly thking if I’ll kana for toking abt this. F*** care…)

4) Damn f***ing stressed up! Project’s like due soon and I still got lots to catch up on. Here’s wht happened. Went to some stupid computer store in “THE IT MALL” to look for the software that I’ll need, but they ran out of stock. The sale person say that stock WILL (I repeat, WILL…) come in within that week. He told me to leave behind my contact no. and say he’ll call if the stock comes in. Bloodly hell, it been f***ing 2 weeks liao… Damn f***ing tulan!!! How to do my project like that, Then went to sch early to do today, something f***ed up. Did a RAM preview and ended up with colour bars!!! So I guess hv to redo, unless my lecturer finds a way out. Wah lan, spent an hour plus on that leh!!! Time’s running short and I dun hv that bloodly software at home, still got a research thingy to do. ARGH!!!

5) Thk asking my mum to stop having a maid at home is a gd thing afterall. If not, I think my sis n I will end up being bloody spoilt *tu* brats… At least I dun go round screaming and shouting, hoping what I’m looking for will just appear right in front of me. At least I kn how to cook and wash my own clothes, and I mean hand wash, not machine wash. Till now, I still dunno how this new washing machine works. The old one spoilt and I think this one has been ard for more thn half a year. Maybe I’ve gotten use to using my hands to wash my clothes… Best of all, I DON’T go round saying, “Huh?!?! I dun (fill in the blank). I get my maid to do it for me!”

6) Think Amok’s ‘flaking’… So I guess that freak’s finishing his poxing. Hehe… Got someone to watch A.I with liao… Muahahahahaha…

Guess that’s all I wana blabber abt today… Nitey nitezz… By the way, I’ve just gt this hunch that I’ve gt addicted to pool…